My-So-Called-Quest

Surgery! Oh Surgery!

2012-02-01T17:55:00.001+08:00

Today's my first day in surgery rotation and i was asked to scrub-in for a minor surgery.
The surgeon was conversing with me earlier regarding my last rotation, which was Pedia. At the minor OR she asked me what do i want to take as a specialization.

I paused for awhile, thinking hard what to answer.

At the back of my mind, i want to say Pedia.

But as you all know, my first option was Reconstructive Surgery. So, that's what i said.

I told her "I want to be Reconstructive Surgeon."

The Surgeon smiled.

and she said "you need to make a good impression to me then"

My face turned red. I didn't knew prior that she's a reconstructive surgeon.

After that, she's been teaching me a lot of stuff.

She had another minor OR and she specifically asked me to scrub-in. She even asked me to excise the epidermoid cyst.then stitch the wound together.

SWEET!

now i'm starting to get confused.

Pedia vs. Surgery

pwede naman both. Pediatric Surgeon. ehehe

2:14

2012-01-17T21:31:00.002+08:00

It was a humid January afternoon and there were no patientsin the Pediatric Emergency Room. Of course I was happy, aside from no kids weregetting sick that day, I’m glad cause it’s another benign duty for me. I wassitting comfortably in one of the benches chatting up with my resident on duty.She was telling me to already decide where I will take my Post-Grad Internship.I wanted to tell her that I’m still undecided... If I’ll stay or not.

Suddenly, a crying 19 year old mother came in, carrying herchild. The 2 weeks old baby wrapped in a blanket was bluish in color, gasping forair, unresponsive to any stimuli but you can still hear a heartbeat... a very faintheartbeat. The child was intubated, ambubagging was done and 3 doses of epinephrinewere given. And at exactly 2:14pm, afterall the medical intervention, the child finally gave in.

I wanted to cry. That was the first death Iexperienced as a physician. But I know it’s not the right place and right time to do that. I wantedto blame the parents for not bringing the child immediately but due tofinancial constraints you can’t really blame anyone.

After that, it rained hard outside.

Almost 2 months in Pediatrics made me realize things.

1. I’m considering Pedia as a specialization. Itnever crossed my mind but I’m enjoying my rotation. I also didn’t think I couldhave good interaction with kids. Maybe as Pediatric Surgeon Pedia Neuro.

2. I want to train in a public hospital. You willencounter all types of cases there. Learning is really very different fromstudying.

3. I was really touched when one sick kid gave me achocolate bar and said “kuya doc, para po sa inyo”

4. Rotatingin one of the busiest public hospital thought me how to be strict and “masungit.” One parent even told me, “doc, di bagay sayo magsungit” and oneco-intern told me after scolding a parent “ced,nakakatakot ka pala pag nagagalit.” I told them “di naman talaga ako galit pero kailangan magsungit dahil hindi kapapakinggan ng iba kapag nagbabaitbaitan ka sa kanila. Para rin naman sa anaknila yun”

5. Ican go on 36 hours duty with only 1-2 hours of sleep. That’s how much I love mywork.

6. Ican lose 10lbs in 2 weeks. Charge it on skipping meals or having late meals.

7. Ienjoy work when I’m with a resident who’s also as bubbly as me. Work is muchlighter and easier when you’re comfortable.

8. So far I have 5 mortalities. 2 Dengue Stage 4and 3 premature babies. And I'll never forget each one of them.

9. I lost any form of social life. From January1-15 I wasn’t even able to contact some friends even contact my parents and say“nay, okay pa naman ako” at least I can tweet. ehehe

10. Finally, I got sick. Being exposed to patientswith different illness can make your immune system berserk. Even if I’m takingmega doses of Vitamin C. My body finally gave in. It started with AcuteTonsillopharingitis and now I have Acute Gastroenteritis. My friend told me myeyeballs are sunken and she advised admission. Of course, being the makulit me,I declined. I said I’d rather take Hydrite.

X’s - glad this blog is turning into the chronicles of myinternship. Of course there’s still a little drama, but who wouldn’t want that.It’s a good thing I write about these things.

I Wrote a Story about You

2011-12-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

♪Reflections of your love have come to wither, I thought I'd done my best to memorize♪

It was quarter past 3 in the morning; I woke up lying in my bed, half naked, curled, and hugging a pillow. I had a dream... it was one of those dreams that you were crying in it and suddenly you woke up, your eyes soaking in tears. And you can feel your pillow damped.

The dream goes by like snapshots, like those in movies, viewed in an LCD.

The dream started exactly the same day today. It’s that day I knew that from that day on, everything will change... From what I believed in, what I had been trying to prevent from happening. That day I never thought of the consequences, or of what might happen. Because in my point of view, it was pure bliss and it’s gonna be worth it. Cause I was at my happiest.

It happened mid-afternoon in one of the busiest malls in QC, where everyone’s hustling for post-Christmas and pre-New Year shopping. I was worried I won’t be able to catch your bus. And I wasn’t even able to change my shirt. I knew I was sweating like a pig before meeting you. I was very worried you’ll be disappointed. At the same time I was very excited cause finally, for the first time, we’ll meet.pa

Alas, the time had come. You told me you’re near; I was walking fast-phased in the overpass looking directly at the bus stop on the other side of the street, looking for someone wearing green. I was glad that I got there before you because it gave me time to wipe off some sweat in my forehead. I saw the bus nearing its stop; my heart’s beating fast that I can feel each pulsations in my throat. You stepped down and I recognized you immediately and I was smiling the whole time after seeing you. As you promised you were wearing your favourite shirt, you smiled back. I wanted to hug you that time. I offered to carry your bag but you declined. We talked on our way through the nearest mall and, there were no single awkward moments, no awkward silence. Everything went well. And i was comfortable.

We dined in one of the restaurant outside of that mall. You asked if we can eat something you don’t usually have. To be honest, I was so shy from you, making small glances at your eyes but most of the time on your lips. And your voice...

And then I woke up...

I woke up and wiped my eyes with a bedsheet. I told myself, it was all just a dream...

It was all just a dream...

♪A picture fades of you and I together, I haven't come to terms with how we said goodbye... Reflections of your love have come to wither... I thought I'd done my best to memorize♪

Magpe-Pedia ka ba?

2011-12-17T10:45:00.001+08:00

♪You see the old way wasn’t working so it’s on us to do, what we gottado, to survive♪

In a couple of weeks, setsanother year… Another opportunity to start things in a clean slate, anotheropportunity to start over. It made me think what this year had thought me andchanged me into. To be honest, I’m still the jolly person you’ll meet.Optimistic…Hopeful… But this time with a different perspective. I’ll admit, I usedto think of the things that will only make me happy… You know? Those temporaryhighs.

So far I’ve been enjoying everyrotation in the hospital. Ophtha, ENT, Psych and now Pediatrics. I’m excited tolearn new things, things that I only knew before because I only read about it. It’sreally different when you can actually see those cases in person. Internship,so far, is teaching me how to be though in many ways. And aside from learningthose medical cases, you also need to learn how to get along with yoursuperiors and your co-interns.

It feels good to somehow inspirea co-intern on how to have an organized mind, how to deal with pressure and howto manage being awake 36 hours with only 15 minutes of nap time. What inspire meare my patients. Seriously, all I wanted is them to be well and it feels greatwhen you send them home feeling better. 2 weeks in Pediatric Service thought mea lot of things. It thought me how to be selfless and confident.

A friend told me awhile ago, “how come you’re still energetic and higheven though we only had an hour of sleep? How do you do that?” I answered back with “I guess I enjoy what I do” but i also wanted to add "i've been praying for a long time for this, to be finally busy"

x's - someone also asked me if i wanted to become a pediatrician. now that made me think hard...

Death And All His Friends

2011-12-05T18:27:00.001+08:00

“Ahuman life is made up of choices, live or die, that's the important choice andit's not always in our hands.”

In medicine, they say that a dying person has this specificaura, a specific scent. Death is common and a natural process for us; it’s inevitablehowever we’ll do our best to revive a dying person. We, as your doctors, arenot gods.

In first year of medical school, we were introduced withdeath via cadaver. We studied every organ, every tissue every vein, everyartery and every nerve with our cadaver. That’s our first taste of what deathlooks and feels like. In succeeding years we study the normal human process aswell as the pathologic process of every disease. In third year, we study postmortem cases. And in every pathophysiology, what we try to figure out is how didthis person die?

But death hits hard when it occurred to a loved one…

To my lola Inggay. I love you so much. I know you’re in abetter place, a place with no suffering and pain. I know you’re with lolo ikoand finally you’re together again. I’ll always pray for you as always, I’ll lighta candle everytime I attend a novena or visited a church. And I will neverforget the things you thought me. Mamimissko yung luto mong adobo sa atsuwete.

“In medicalschool, we have a hundred lessons that teach us how to fight off death, and notone lesson on how to go on living.”

It's Indeed Been a Crazy Month

2011-11-30T10:05:00.001+08:00

Today’s the last day of my dutyin National Center for Mental Health aka Mental Hospital in Mandaluyong, alsothe end of my first 2 months as a Medical Clerk. In all honesty I wasn’tprepared for what’s gonna happen with me there. Like every Clerk that rotatesthere our motto is “bahala na si batman sa akin dun”

With 36 hours duty every 3 days,psychiatric patients are the most stressful patients I had so far. The fearthat they might hurt you or do something to you is the first thing that willcome up to your mind when you interview and examine them. But alas, as dayspass, I learn that they are the most interesting patients I had.

Here’s what I learn from them andwith my rotation

1. On my first duty, I was startled when an 18 yearold girl patient hugged me while examining another patient. I wasn’t aware thatshe was behind me. I commanded her to sit in her bed and told her relative tolook after her. But I had palpitations right then and then and feels likelitters of blood was drained in my system.

2. Another one in my first duty, a restrainedpatient was asleep and I was about to get his BP, silently and with caution ofnot waking him up, I placed the cuff in his arm. And then again I was startledwhen he suddenly shouts and held my pants.

3. There’s a big misconception about Schizophrenia.The term is misused most of the time and it’s stigmatizing.

4. Psychotics are person who’s not aware or disconnectedwith reality while Neurotic people are the opposite.

5. I read some cases, and BULLYING is indeed one ofthe causes of psychiatric disorder. From schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and ofcourse depression. So be careful and watch your mouth when you talk aboutsomeone.

6. Failed relationships are also sometimes the cause of the above mentioned psychiatric disorders. Also being alone and secluding yourself from others is a bigfactor.

7. ECTs or Electroconvulsive therapy is surelyeffective to some patients but for me it’s very inhumane. This procedure isdone by inducing your patients in convulsion with micro doses of electricity. Aprobe is placed in either side of the temporal part of your head.

8. A very good support from family and friends willprevent these things from happening. These disorders are sometimes preventable.

9. The above experiences made me paranoid for days,seriously. And I’m glad I have good friends as my safety net. But one friend toldme I need to be demedicalize so that I won’t get too attached with my patients.Psych patients are draining, physically, intellectually and yes, emotionally.

10. I was assigned in Pavilion 1. If you’ll seetheir condition there, they look helpless and I wonder if they’re really gonnaget well. They share toothbrush, lay in cold stone floor and what looks like aprison cell. And please don’t ask me how it smells. They have skin disease frominsect bites. They also share slippers which they only use when they need to goout when being examined or when their relatives visit them. I’d like to do afund-raising for them and donate some toothbrush, bath soaps or slippers. I’dlike to ask some of you for help but I’m still wondering when and how to dothis. I might do it this coming December. I don’t want issues as well, cause I might hear the reason why I’mdoing this to get something in return from my residents for personal interest that’swhy I planned doing it right after I submitted my clearance. If you’reinterested. You know how to contact me. : )

Now i’m preparing for my 2 monthsrotation in Pediatrics. Wish me luck! :D

The Eternal Optimist

2011-06-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

If I’ll be asked what lesson I won’t forget from any of my professor is that of my Philosophy Teacher, Sir Lucero, I remember he told us that to be of a great man, you should at least accomplish 3 things in life. One is to plant a tree, second is to write a book and lastly to have and raise a child. I’ve only accomplished the first one and that is to plant a tree and if you can equate blogging as writing a book then that makes it two. The last one’s uncertain yet.

But as I grew older and a bit wiser, I learned that there are far better than the 3 things above. Life is a constant change as they say. But in reality people don’t really change, circumstances do. And that’s the important thing I guess. You live and learn. As we go through life, for me there are three important things we at least experienced or learn.

The first thing is… to love. It’s easier said than done but what I meant is to love without asking anything in return. To love without limits, to show that person how important they are and that they are worth fighting for. To be devoted. To have this something so wonderful and sacred, that you’re so afraid someone will take it away. Something that makes you feel like you’re soaring, makes you feel worth all the trouble.

The second thing is… to be loved. To be loved without asking that someone to fall for you in return and not even pleading to them to reciprocate. Simple things that will swept you off your feet, like “how was your day?” or teaching you new things, telling you that how wonderful this life can be. To be loved by someone as whom you are, appreciating you and the small things that you do, telling you how worthy of their time you are, making you feel you're the most important person in the world.

The third and last thing is… to move forward. Now this can be of two directions. One is to move ahead with that someone, taking those small steps of changes which will be good for both of you and second one speaks of moving forward, when things didn’t work as you wished it could be.

Life will always give us choices and options. What we need to do is choose what’s best for us. We may fail and fall but again, life will give you another set of choices and options.

It’s been a year since I came back to blogging. At that moment I told myself I was ready to learn. I was ready to find out what this world has to offer, that I’m willing to learn a thing or two about this world. But what I learned and found out is myself, what I am capable of and what I can offer. I met great and not so great people but life happens and sometimes we drift. I learned to love, be loved and hurt and hopefully move forward, because that’s what life is.

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We may not see each other again but I want to tell you that I don’t regret anything and that I still love you despite everything. I'll keep every memories here in my head and in my heart just in case. When I’ll be in that better place after all of these, I’ll think and be happy of what I became because of you. I’m sorry I can’t keep my promise of staying, but I have to decide for myself as well. It doesn’t mean that I won’t care for you anymore, but I figured it’s the best for both of us. I have to be thankful, that once, our paths had crossed each other, and I hope you learned a lot from me as I am to you. I wish you well.

Press Play

I had a dream… I was walking in a dark tunnel, my right hand was touching the walls of it as a guide. I was waiting and praying to see any sign that I’m almost on the end so I can go out. Until, I heard footsteps that came nearer and nearer. The voice asked me if I was lost too, I said yes. At that moment I was glad that at least I’ll have some company as we look for the tunnel’s end. Bravery and courage quickly replaced doubt and fear. For the first time, the tunnel doesn’t seem too scary at all.

After uncounted hours and several steps made, I heard another voice, echoing inside the tunnel, another footsteps hustling towards us. I heard the first voice said “hey, that voice sounds familiar” and he came running towards that second voice, opposite of our direction. He was running so fast that I have to catch up. I thought I lost track of them until, I heard laughter… joyous laughter. I can still hear them running towards the opposite direction. Right then, I decided to stop running. It made me realize, I was chasing them but no one’s chasing after me. I stopped running, lowered my head, placed both of my hands on my lap and I was panting heavily… I was sweating so much that I didn’t even notice that I was crying. I decided I have to find the tunnel’s end, took a deep breath and started walking towards the original direction we’re supposed to be going.

I woke up, the sunlight hitting my face. I checked my phone, took a deep breath; it was 5:49 in the morning. It’s only been 3 hours since I dozed off. I stood up, went straight to the restroom and stared for the longest time in the bathroom mirror.

I'm feeling kind of fragile and I've got a lot to handle but I guess this is my way of saying goodbye ♪♫

The Untold Story

2011-05-14T12:00:00.009+08:00

It was one of those ordinary lunch break, I was sitting on a bench under the Talisay tree near my class room. I just ate my baon then, a sandwich and juice which I prepared earlier before going to my 7am class. I was a newcomer then from an Elementary Public School, wearing a pair of tattered shoes and a hand-hand-me-down uniform from one of my siblings who earlier attended the same Private Catholic School. I made a few friends then but none of them stayed for lunch. Then there was this group of sophomore boys who walks closer to my spot. One of them asked me why don’t I have any company. That’s all I could remember but there were series of laughter and snickering after that. I can’t recall much but that time I wished I was out of that situation. I prayed that it would stop. I wished, I have a company that time. I wished I didn’t attend that day’s class and just stayed at home. I have to control my tears then cause I know it will show the sign that I am weak. The bell rang and I knew it will not stop there.

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I was sweating much at that time. Still in first year, I was panicking that I can’t find my school ID. I traced every steps I made and rooms that I visited. The Library, The Cafeteria, our classroom, Computer Lab, everything. The last place I haven’t checked yet was the boy’s restroom near the Principal’s office. I have a strong feeling it could be there. I was correct. I saw my ID floating in one of the toilet bowl. I have an idea who did that but my instinct of not telling it to anyone not even the principal prevailed since it was my responsibility why I lost it. As an instinct of a public school kid, I grabbed the nearest stick, and tried to pick up the ID, I don’t know if I’ll be happy and thank that the last person who used the cubicle, since he flushed the toilet. I washed my id and my hands while I cried.

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The torture ended up when I got in 2^nd year High School. There were still few things I can’t forget, and the humiliation didn’t stop there. One of my classmates laughed at me and I’m still wondering now if I ever said something stupid when she asked me where I live.

It was a wash day that day, the time where the cool kids were able to brag their new clothes. I on the other hand was wearing something borrowed from my older sibs. I don’t mind to be honest. But one classmate looked at me from head to toe and asked me what was I wearing. I couldn’t answer her and she said, “for sure sa palengke mo yan nabili”. I just smiled.

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I was trying to console two friends who went through a fight then. You know high school is full of click drama. It was actually a big fight from the two of them. But since they were two of my closest friends, I tried so hard not to pick a side. One of them blurted, “Why are you taking her side? Did you know how mean she is? She made a list of all boys in the class room. From the ugliest to the cutest, you ranked 2^nd.” To be honest, it’ll be funny if it came from someone else. But that coming from someone you considered a friend for four years. I just hope it was said to me by my face. I know how I look like and it wouldn’t be that of a big deal.

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I wrote this not because I want you to pity me. And not because i dwell so much in the past. High School ended 10 years ago, seriously, I can now laugh with some of the things that happened before. But it’s true what they say, “Who are we then, greatly affects who are we now.” Self-esteemed shattered, maybe that's why, sometimes i'm greatly affected of what others will say about me. Also I’m tired of being ganged up, laughed at and hearing things. Some people will claim they know you, but the truth is they don’t. You may know few things but you don’t know what I’ve been through.

What happened to me gave me a soft spot to those who are constantly being bullied and ganged up. Now, I'm not washing my hands here cause i know there were instances i bullied someone but at least i know my limits and we'll laughed about it in the end.

I’m tired of fitting in, asking myself where I belong. I’m tired of pleasing everyone. And I’m tired of people making claims about this and that. That's why we don't make assumptions of someone based on just what you heard or read. Maybe that’s why I have few close friends and I prefer having few than a bunch of negative people. I believe some of us never really got out of high school. It's either we honed that good attitude or make those ugly things as our inspiration to move forward. The difference now is, even when I'm alone, I’m much more confident, much smarter and more stronger.

Medicine is Might

2011-04-22T15:00:00.004+08:00

As doctors, before we make a diagnosis we gather all the facts.

We take your history; ask you what happened from the start. We ask you to narrate. We keep you on tract with your details in case you have segues and telling stories not related with you disease. We perform physical exam in each complain you said; we look, we touch, we use our senses. We use stethoscopes and equipments that will aid us. We review both your History and PE before we make conclusions. If we’re not sure we indicate “to consider” or “to suggest”.

We don’t make half-baked conclusions.

We don’t make Biased assumptions.

We don’t speculate.

Why? Because we may give you a wrong impression followed by a wrong management. It will ruin our career, our credibility.

It’s a process…

In every patient…

In every case…

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I'm Back.

New Semester.

New Ced.

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Rewind, Play, then Stop

2011-03-17T00:00:00.015+08:00

Written last February 17, 2011

9:51:20 PM

I stared to the mirror for the longest time and looked at my own reflection.

I asked myself of who I’ve become...

I asked myself what I’ve become...

We adapt ourselves with all of these. Accustom to things that we weren’t used to do. Planned things that will be good for you and your special someone…

You have a different perspective… A different attitude.

You were completely changed from what you used to believe, because as you move forward with one hand with that person, you have this beautiful and perfect mindset.

It made me think, who was I before this?

What I’ve been doing then?

And I try to comprehend; will we be able to go back to what we used to be?

What i used to be...

Or will we be able to move forward equipped with new perspective?

Or move forward to a new me...

I can’t even recall what I really want before.

I can’t even recall what my plans with my life before.

I can’t even recall what my life could have been if I didn’t met you.

But…

I can recall that I didn’t have any directions then.

I can recall the things that I did and they made me realize how important having you now and to treasure the time we’re together.

I can recall just wishing to be somewhere else and how much time I wasted before we met.

All of these were changed because of you, as they say relationships makes the best out of us. We take a leap for what is best for us. You, changed me to be the best that i can.

I stared to the mirror for the longest time and my reflection told me that…

I’m still learning a lot.

And there are no regrets, I tell you. So don’t worry about me... Don't ever worry about me.

But let me worry about you. Let me worry when your alone and lonely. Let me worry when you're feeling sick, Let me worry when you're doubtful. Let me look after you when you're asleep.

'Twas an everyday risk.

But...

There are no regrets, Just Love.

March 17, 2011

12:00AM

26...

is est terminus quest.

ego mos diligo vos pro totus of meus vita.

satus per diligo, terminus per diligo

Rewind, Slow Motion then Pause

2011-02-17T00:00:00.005+08:00

Every night I press rewind and play things in slow motion…

The day we met,

The way you look at me and me to you,

The way you smile and laugh,

The way you talk.

The first hug, the first kiss.

Pause...

Every night I press rewind and play things in slow motion….

Your head on my chest,

The scent of your hair,

The scent of your perfume,

Me kissing your forehead saying I love you and thank you,

Our hands intertwined together.

Pause...

Every night I press rewind and play things in slow motion….

Watching you asleep,

Thanking Him for bringing you here.

Putting my left ear where your heart is, listening as it beats.

Our little off-guard moments, just us, smiling and silently staring at each other.

Pause...

Every night I press rewind and play things in slow motion…

The time I held you so tight under the warm dim light,

Your head on my shoulder, my head leaning yours.

Bennett’s on the background singing:

“With each word your tenderness grows,
tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
it touches my foolish heart.”

I closed my eyes and silently prayed, please don't let this end.

Pause...

Every night I press rewind and play things in slow motion…

In my mind and in my heart, these things will never be erased or forgotten

And I want to tell you, how I badly want to press fast forward.

And see you and me together again in the near future.

You and Me, Just Us Two.

Something New, Something Old. Press Play Then Next

2011-02-13T20:30:00.003+08:00

In the light of the celebration of Vday, I’ll post some music to set you all in the mood. Hehehe

Well, these are some songs that you can use or listen just for fun. It can be stimulating or do the opposite to you. So kayo na ang bahala. haha

So enjoy the Valentines version of Something New, Something Old.

Sexual Capacity by Color Me Badd

“I never knew someone like you would come my way.
To tell the truth, I can't help but be a little afraid
I think your love might be a little too much for me.”

*I first heard this song under the OST of the 1996 film Striptease starring Demi Moore. Though it didn’t made to the original cut for the OST, I remember its music video showing some clips from the said movie.

All The Things by Joe

“Nothin' can be sweeter than the sound of makin' love
Baby, when I start I just can't stop
I'll love you from the bottom to the top
Nothin' is forbidden when we touch”

*Just check out the beats and the lyrics of this song. Haha

Criminal by Fiona Apple

“Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I've got to make a play”

*Like the second one, her voice matching the beats plus the video. Haha. I have a crush on her and seeing this vid didn’t even helped my…

Nice & Slow by Usher

“Now here we are
Drivin' round town
Contemplating where I'm gonna lay you down
Girl you got me sayin'
My, my, my
I wish that I Could pull over
And get this thing started right now
I wanna do something freaky to you baby”

*Now I know most of you know this one. Like me, the 90’s kids know this song by heart. Well not all but I remember seeing this video and singing along with it. Hehe and look a young Kimora Lee. lol

Honorable Mentions

Closer by Nine Inch Nails

Nobody by Keith Sweat

Bliss by Mariah Carey

Slow by Kylie Monogue

Butterflies by Michael Jackson

X's - o mga kids, enjoy your date kung meron, kung wala, ganyan talaga, sanayan lang yan. haha. ako sanay na. Happy Valentines Day! :P

Rewind then Fast Forward

2011-02-10T00:00:00.004+08:00

I was looking through our pictures awhile ago. Me and my high school friends, you see, went out last weekend. I need a time off from med books and decided to meet them after eons (just kidding, maybe yeah, a year or half, sorry ako ng busy).

“We grew up so fast” I told myself and smiled as I browsed our pictures. And then it got me thinking about relationships, our relationships… our unconventional relationships. We may not be like our batch mates; getting married, settling down, and having kids.

When we were in high school, I remember someone told me “all the good ones are taken, so hurry”. Pathetic as it may sound, admit it, having a relationship in high school, aside from having those academic achievements was essential. Maybe it’s part of fitting in or having an identity? (sorry that’s what I view life then, so don’t judge me)

But now that we’ve matured a little, we have different takes; it’s not just having relationships. It’s not just satisfying what you need, to love and be loved, cause there are different types of relationships. Unlike our batch mates having those traditional relationships, me and my friends still believe in fairytales, the unwritten type of ones though, like a princess falling in love with another princess, a prince to another, a princess torn between two prince, a prince who’s still enjoying his single life and will have a relationship when the right one comes, a princess marrying a rockstar, a princess living far away from his prince, a prince loving an eccentric princess and a prince who’s new to a new kingdom, is still learning but can finally say have a direction because of someone.

I bet to one of my friends last weekend, who among us will get married soon. And we laughed.

We have different takes, but as long as we believe into something (and that is love no matter how odd it is) and most importantly is to be happy.

image from here

It’s Time Everyone Flies.

2011-02-05T00:00:00.005+08:00

If you will ask me 3 years ago where do I want to work or be an intern, I’ll confidently and will never think twice say “dito sa Pinas”. Of course that was 3 years ago. Three short years ago when I still don’t know what I want. Still don’t know my opportunities to work or be an intern somewhere else.

During the holidays, I talked to Nanay about my plans. And one of her statements struck me; she said “akala ko gusto mo dito magtrabaho at hindi ka aalis”. After explaining to her everything with matching tears (yeah, ako ng iyakin…) she understood now why I wanted to go there. She asked me things, like, will I ever be back here if ever? I said of course, I could train there then go back or save a lot first there then go back or have a vacation here if possible. I don’t know. Things can still change. I’ll know when I get there.

I’m currently inquiring in 3 hospitals. I’m excited and at the same time, very nervous. Who wouldn’t be? But if I’ll let this opportunity pass, I might regret one day why I didn’t even try. (Now I need your prayers for this one, sana maayos at matuloy)

Some of my friends question me why do I even want to try. That I’m more needed here. But I told them, my reasons and I hope they understood. I really hope they do.

Should I explain my reasons to all of you? I guess not. But one thing is certain; I’m doing this for myself. I’m doing this for my future... for a better future. And if that future includes you and that’s just tremendous at the same time exhilarating because it’s a dream come true.

Now, let's put these wings to test.

Case 13: Me and Maja Part 2

2011-01-30T00:00:00.003+08:00

Naisipan ko na turuan si Maja ng konting tricks. Hehe. Pambawi ko na to. Napakabilis kasi turuan kaya sorry na lang sa kanila. Haha

Pag tinanong sino na ang magaling… ituturo nya si Nanay ko. Kasi pag wala si Maja sa bahay, nagkakasakit si Nanay. Pagumuuwi na ng bahay namin nawawala na ang sakit nya. Hahaha

Pag tinanong sino ang mabaho.. ituturo nya ang Tatay ko. Haha. Wag nyo na alamin bakit, too much info!

Pagtinanong kung sino si putol… ituturo nya ulit ang tatay ko. Naputol kasi ang ring finger ni tatay nung nasa navy pa siya.

Pag tinanong sino ang mataba… ituturo nya Papa nya. Haha.

Pag tinanong sino ang takot sa ulan… yung labandera namin. hehe

Pag tinanong sino si loverboy… ituturo nya yung isang Kuya ko. Hahahah

Pag tinanong sino love nya… isa isa nya ituturo. Mama nya, Papa nya, sina Nanay at tatay. Pati kami.

Pag tinanong sino may toyo… ituturo nya yung isang Uncle namin, malakas kasi talaga toyo nun e. si maja lang nakakapagpatino dun. Spoiled na spoiled sya dun.

Pag tinanong sino matanda… ituturo nya yung dalawa kong lola! Hahahahah.

Lastly, Pag tinanong mo kung sino ang pogi….

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Maaga ako nakauwi ng bahay nung Friday at dali dali ako sinalubong ng aking pamangkin/inaanak. Ganyan ang itsura nya nun. Mas malala pa ata. hehe. at dali dali akong kiniss sa cheeks. hehe

Nakakatuwa pa e, hinanapan nya ako ng tsinelas at pinahuhubad ang sapatos ko sabay sabi ng "Nong, palit na!"

Something New, Something Old. ADELE

2011-01-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Excuse me if I post this, I've been listening to Adele for the pas few days.

Her voice is very calming.

Very Soothing.

I know most of you knew her with Chasing Pavements.

But here are two songs that i really like from her.

Make You Feel My Love - Adele

"I know you haven't made your mind up yet

But I would never do you wrong

I've known it from the moment that we met

No doubt in my mind where you belong"

*i think this is a Bob Dylan Original.

Now and Then - Adele

"Then our eyes cry
And souls sigh
So that we know
That it hurts"

Case 13: Mr. Palengke

2011-01-20T12:00:00.001+08:00

Hindi ito tungkol kay Mar Roxas. Unahan ko na kayo.

Dahil may 2 days off ako (diba nago-off kahit hindi nagtatrabaho) e nautusana ako ng nanay na samahan siya sa palengke. Naalala ko lang nung bata pa ako, na bago kami magpunta sa palengke e sinasabihan na kami ni nanay na “WAG KA MAGTUTURO, IIWAN KITA DUN” sabay dilat ng mata. Hahaha Syempre ako naman e takot na takot, kaya bawal magturo. May time na nagturo ata ako at sang katutak na palo nakuha ko sa nanay ko nuon. Hehe

So, ayun kanina e sinamahan ko siya ulit sa palengke. Nakakatuwa lang. nandun pa rin yung mga dating tindahan. Meron dung tindahan ng pabango. Nakaaircon pa sila at may binibentang mga lotion, pabango at anik-anik. Nandun pa irn yung nagbebenta ngmga school supplies, sa sobrang laki ng kinikita niya ata e dati isang maliit na stall lang siya ngayon 3 na ata sakop nya pati yung tapat na stall nakuha na rin.

Tinanong ako ni nanay kung ano gusto kong tanghalian. Sinabi ko lang basta gulay masaya na ako. Nagtuturo siya kung gusto ko ng alimasag o sugpo. (todo deny naman ako na ayaw ko e, gustong gusto ko naman. Baka mapalo ako pag nagturo e, haha). Nagturo sya ng isda, bisugo, tilapia, bangus, pesa, tinanggihan ko dahil hindi naman ako mahilig kumain ng isda lalo na yung matinik. Hindi sa ayaw ko sa isda, tamad lang ako magkurot. Haha kaya Albacora lang kinakain ko. (albacore name nya or Longfin tuna) sarap n sarap ako dyan, sinigang o prito solve na ko. Hehe

Di nawawala yung makasalubong ng nanay ang mga amiga o ex-coteachers o co-retired teachers nya. todo benta ang nanay sa pagbalandra ng kanyang anak. haha. Para akong baboy lang na binebenta na P160/kilo. (sabagay mukha naman akong baboy)

Ayun lang naman, nakauwi kami ng walang nabiling gulay, saya lang diba? :)

Case 12: Me and Maja

2011-01-16T00:00:00.004+08:00

She was born 2 days after my 24^th birthday kaya siguro magkatopak kami ng inaanak/pamangkin kong to. Marami ring nagsasabi na magkahawig kami nung bata pa ako. Swerte niya! Haha. Joke lang!

Naisip ko na gawan kami ng entries ng aking mahal na inaanak. Madami kaming bonding moments nito. She’s only 1 year and 10 months old at saksakan ng likot at kulit (another thing na namana nya sa ninong niya)

While were having our dinner na sopas. Kanina pa nya ako tinitingnan pano kumain. Sinansanay kasi din namin syang kausapin ng diretso at hindi yung parang barok. Kaya normal na conversation ang ginagamit namin sa bahay. Minsan English rin. Hehe

Ninong: o Maja, use your spoon properly. Like this. (demo naman si ninong)

Maja: Hrap!

Ninong: madali lang, like this o! (demo ulit si ninong)

Maja: Hrap Nong!

Ninong: O sige na nga ano gusto mo gawin? Pano ka kakain?

Maja: (sabay angat ng tasa nya, nilagay sa bibig at hinigop ang sabaw ng sopas.

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Isang hapon, dumungaw ako sa terrace namin na overlooking sa sala ng bahay. Nandun sila ng mama nya at ang Nanay ko.

Nanay ko: Bakit di mo love Ninong mo, bad yun. Sige nga bat di mo love?

Maja: (umiiling kasi alam nya nakatingin ako sa kanya)

Mama ni Maja: Sige na, bakit di mo love si Ninong? Nahiya ka ata kasi nandyan si ninong.kanina dinedemo mo sa amin ni lola e.

Maja: (Sabay demo ng nakatigerlook at tumango na parang maangas/siga)

Ninong: Ayyyy!

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Isang umaga nakita ata ako ni inaanak na nakatulala. Sabay tumakbo at sinasabing “Ninong! Ninong! NInong!” paglapit sa akin ng bata, sabay nya akong hinug.

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Sobrang nakakawalang pagod at stress ang mga bata. Kaya naman tuwang tuwa ako sa inaanak kong to. Sana magdagdagan pa ang mga inaanak ko at pamangkin sa mga kapatid ko. For sure spoiled na spoiled din sila sa akin.

Something New, Something Old. Part 3

2011-01-11T00:00:00.001+08:00

To continue the list of music in my playlist. here’s my lineup of songs that I listen most of the time.

By the way the following music are actually kinda old songs pa rin. hehe

Hope you'll enjoy!

U R A fever by The Kills

"you are a fever, you are a fever
you ain't born typical"

Heard this song while watching TV and looked up it online. hindi naman ako nahirapan na hanapin gawa ng lyrics. haha

I Want You to Want Me by Letters to Cleo

"I'll shine up my old brown shoes
Put on a brand new shirt
Get home early from work
If you say..."

I knew this song after i watched 10 Things I hate About You, OST of that movie for me is superb. 90's indeed is one of the best decade for music.

FNT by Semisonic

"I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely and you're perfect
And that somebody wants you"

Another trackf from 10 Things I hate About You. the beat of this song always gets me into the mood. if i can drive siguro isa to sa mga paulit ulit na papatugtugin ko. well most songs of Semisonic.

So that's it muna! ingat kayo.

Regular Programming

2011-01-06T00:00:00.003+08:00

Back to regular programming. Balik school na naman para sa ating mg students, balik work naman para sa mga naghahanap-buhay. Sa totoo nasusuka na ko sa school, but I have to finish this kasi, konti na lang at matatapos na rin. At ginusto ko rin naman to.

But I really want to work. But for now I need to concentrate on my studies. Mas importante yun.

Pagpasok may isang Nephrology case na nagaabang na para ipresent. Random roll-call na naman ang gagawin. Nawa’y di ako matawag dahil baka handa sa Noche Buena ang maisagot ko.

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Sadly, nawalan ako ng budget for Gym. Mukhang di ko na sya matutuloy for the mean time. So that means back to jogging na muna ko sa ___ for my cardio. I’m planning to do 5 laps around _____ (ayan blanko na. hehe). At good thing meron akong weights sa dorm para magawa ko yung ibang parts ng circuit training.

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Tuloy pa rin ang diet, di nakatulong ang 2 weeks vacation na kakain at kakahiga. Balik nilagang saba at nilagang egg muna tayo.

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So pano? Back to daily routine na tayo. Gising ng maaga, ligo, kain, pasok sa school/office. Ingat!

image from here

Case 11: Lola Ingay and Lola Ching

2011-01-01T14:41:00.003+08:00

Spend the lunch today visiting my 2 lolas.

Natutuwa ako sa 2 lola kong to. Dahil kahit may katandaan na e malakas pa rin sila at makikita mo kapag holiday season na sobrang saya nila. Nakikita na kahit papano kumpleto ang pamilya.

Tradisyon na kasi namin na dumalaw sa kanilang dalawa sa unang araw ng taon. Una, si lola ingay, nanay ni tatay ko. Medyo may kahinaan na ang tenga pero mahilig syang magbiro. Mahilig din makipaglaro sa mga apo nya sa tuhod. Akalain mo dati rati kami ang inaalagaan nya pero ngayon yung mga anak na ng mga pinsan at kapatid ko ang nilalaro. natutuwa ako pag napagbabaliktad nya kami ng isa kong utol. nababaliktad nya ang pangalan namin. hehe

Si lola Ingay, 96 years old.

Pangalawa si Lola Ching, ang nanay ni nanay ko, dati nung bata pa ko medyo naiinis ako sa kanya kasi lagi nya kaming inuutusan. Taga hugas ng pinggan, taga luto, kung anu-ano pa. Lagi kaming nasa kusina (halata naman sa timbang namin) para magayos ngunit yung ibang pinsan ko e nasa harap ng tv, naglalaro ng kung anu-ano. Ngayon ko lang naisip ng tumanda na ko na malaki ang tiwala nya sa nanay ko at sa pamliya ko. Na kaya pala kami inuutusan nuon dahil alam nya na hindi sya mabibigo.

Si lola Ching, 93 years old.

Nagpapasalamat ako na binigyan pa sila ng isang taon pa at lagi kong hinihiling na sana maging maayos ang kalagayan nilang dalawa. Kahit na madalas ko silang biruin napamahal na ko sa dalawa kong lola. Malaki ang natulong nila para mapatapos kami sa pagaaral at hanggang ngayon e tumutulong pa rin sila. At humihingi ako ng marami pang taon para sa kanila. At sana Makita nila na nakatapos rin ako ng pagaaral.

Natuwa rin ako sa kanila dahil simple lang naman ang hiling nila. Yung makumpleto ang pamilya pag may simpleng pagtitipon.

Rundown

2010-12-30T13:45:00.011+08:00

Yeah, medyo late na pero hahabol ako. Hehe.

So maraming bagay na dapat ipagpasalamat this year! Maraming nangyari. Sobrang daming nangyari! Hehe

Salamat sa lahat ng nadaan at nagbabasa sa blog ko. Kahit walang kwneta mga pinagsusulat ko e nagbabasa pa rin kayo. Yaan nyo next year papakabait na ko, at magseseryoso sa pagsusulat. :D thanks ulit! Pahug. :D

Una, ang aking EK trip with Kuya Mak, Kuya Whyt at Tere. Salamat! Super nagenjoy ako nun. First time ko makameet ng bloggers at sobrang happy ako when I met them and spent the day with them. :D

Ang aking 25^th birthday, I had 3 dinner party that whole week, the best one was in Cravings in Tomas Morato. :D

Ang US trip nila Tatay, Nanay at isang Kuya. Kahit hindi ako kasama. Nagenjoy ako sa pagbabantay ng bahay. May time na di ako makatulog magisa. Lol! Seryoso, I went down to the sala at inayos ang sofa at dun natulog. Weird I can’t sleep alone that time. Sama mo na ang weekend trip namin ng medschool friends ditto sa bahay. We had the whole house for ourselves. It ended with a breakfast in tagaytay and we’re eating those delicious buko pie tart. Yum!

Ang Pagudpud-Vigan trip ko, sino bang hindi makakalimutan nun. Ilang oras sa byahe pero worth it naman. I say, you have to visit these places. Sarap lumangoy at kumain at maglakad ng lasing sa streets ng vigan na nageenglish, hehehe Next year I’m planning to visit more beaches. Hopefully matuloy!

Lastly, my year will not be comeplted without you. Salamat sayo, in so many ways na hindi mo alam na nagawa at nabago mo sa akin. Salamat. :)

Happy New Year sa Inyo!

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Patawad sa mga taong nakasagasa ko. I was insensitive and selfish. A good friend told me that kahit saan na may makasalamuha tayo we're still dealing with emotions and trust can be given and taken easily. I'm sorry if i hurted you, if i caused you so much pain. I know this post is not enough. So far i know what i did was very wrong and i know that karma's on it's way. I just pray that eventually you will accept my apology. Again I'm very sorry.

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By the way, merong blogger dito na pinsan ko, first cousin in fact. Hulaan nyo na lang kung sino! Mabait yun at ang clue, mapula din ang lips. :)

When the Prince Met His Match

2010-12-29T00:00:00.005+08:00

As one of the members of the high aristocracy, he’s though well about histories and on a young age he’s though how to run a country, how to act accordingly and behave in front of his monarchial court. Before a prince must be well thought on how to battle using swords, he needs to learn who his allies and enemies are. Most of them who's living in his kingdom have high expectations on him, especially his family.

Even in fairy tales, a prince may either save a princess from dragons; he must kiss one in order to wake his true love from deep slumber, he can be possessed by the sea witch, become a beast, or even fight hundreds of wars just to claim and win his princess’s heart.

Now, some of these things are unnecessary, a prince can live his life normally, except the fact that there are still people with some high expectations for him to do well, for him to be great, for him to soon meet his special someone.

Soon, this prince will prepare and attend a masked ball, he will mingle with his court, enjoy the lavish food prepared by the palace chefs, and he will dance with every girl that will attend the festivity. But at the end of that night the prince’s sight will be fixed to this attendee, it seems like his world will slow down, like in those movies. And he will stop for awhile, held his hand on his chest and will mutter to himself “I finally met my match”.

abangan...

Juan

2010-12-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

Naalala ko nung bata pa ako at pag sinansabi nilang magkamukha tayo lagi akong nagsasabi ng “HINDI” o kaya ay “SI NANAY KAMUKHA KO”. Pangiti-ngiti ka lang kahit alam mo na hindi ko gusto pag binibiro ako ng ganun.

Naalala ko nung lagi tayong nagtatalo, sa pananamit ko, sa gupit ng buhok ko. Naiirita ako dahil tinatrato mo akong sundalo. Dahil sa sundalo ka, na dapat ganito, dapat ganiyan. Nakakainit ng ulo pag nagtatalo tayo. Tatahimik ka o lalayo. Yan ang gawain mo.

Naalala ko na nagkakasundo tayo sa usapang politics. Nagkakasundo ang opinion natin. Nagkakasundo tayo pag iyan ang pinaguusapan natin. Tuwing Lingo, pagkasimba nyo. Sabay tayong kumakain ng palabok, nagkakape at pandesal.

Naalala ko nung nagkasakit ang nanay, bigla syang nawalan ng malay na tayo lang dalawa ang kasama nya. Ayokong magpanic ka, kaya ginawa ko lahat, naging kalmado ako.

Naalala ko na lagi rin tayong nagtatalo dahil makulit ka. Ayaw mong sumunod sa mga payo ko. Tumataas ang blood sugar mo pero parang wala kang pakialam sa dieta mo. Lagi mong dinadahilan “KAYA NGA AKO NAGGAGAMOT”

Naalala ko nung may sakit ang ama mo, nandun ka sa tabi nya, habang nakahiga sya sa kama sa silid nya sa may ospital sinabi nya sayo na, akapin mo naman ako. Lumipas ang ilang oras at iniwan nya tayo. Matatag ka nuong araw na yon.

Nalulungkot ako minsan na wala tayong masyadong alaala na masasabi kong naging magkasundo tayo. Wala tayong quality time. Wala tayong masyadong pinagkakasunduang gawin. Madalang din kitang nakakasama at nakakausap. Pero, ngayon gumagawa ako ng paraan. Madalas kitang kinakamusta, ang farm, kung anong ginawa mo sa maghapon o sa buong lingo. Lagi kitang inaakbayan. Gusto kong bumawi sayo. Gusto kong humingi ng patawad sayo sa mga araw na pasaway ako.

Tay, Happy Birthday po.

Prayers and Wishes

2010-12-24T06:53:00.004+08:00

Are you done with your Christmas Shopping? Nakumpleto nyo ba yung nasa list nyo? Ako, syempre hinde. Haha

Well, this is just a random and quick post. Now that I said all the things that I wanted, wouldn’t it be nice to ask something for someone? Let’s start!

First, it’s not only the season of giving and family/friends bonding but the real reasons are to be grateful and thankful to Him, for all the blessings we receive and about to receive. Reflection and saying a little prayer won’t hurt us guys and gals.

To my Parents – good health and continuously do well that may they enjoy their retired and as grandparents life.

To my Sibs – may they be blessed with joy and have contentment. Maraming maraming pamangkin pra dumami naman ang magaganda at gwapo naming lahi. Lol Good health too. :D

To my Best Bud Enkai – GF! Haha. And wag masyado maging busy sa work! Hope to visit you soon next fall!

To my Friend Muning – little muning of course! Hehe. I’m excited to be a ninong to your soon-to-be-child. More love and happiness to your married life and yeah, hope to see you soon!

To my Med School Friends – may we finish what we started, wag mawawalan ng lakas ng loob and be up to more challenges. Sooner, we’ll become great Physicians and being on the pedestal hopefully will not change what we believe in and our bond will be stonger as ever, :D

To my other friends – sorry I wasn’t able to see some of you, I’ll make it up to you next time. Sorry iba na talaga pag busy, mahirap mag med, may tapings at pictorials. JK! Hehe But seriously it’s hard to juggle time with family and friends and school time. Sama mo pa ang blog hopping. Hehe

To my blog friends – salamat sa pagwelcome sa akin ULIT sa blog world. I hope I entertained you kahit papano. I’ll try to make post with sense kahit papano. Ilelessen ang kalokohan. At magpapakabait na rin ako. Ang hindi maniwaal, may pitik sa ilong. :P

Basta, THANK YOU, and enjoy this holiday season.

To YOU – I know you won’t be able to read this now, but THANK YOU! You don’t know how much you changed me, we may have little misunderstandings, and I know our future is a little uncertain but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t enjoy what we have now. I love you. Sa araw-araw na naguusap tayo, it only makes what I feel for you stronger. I wish that, we can last, make it work and keep our promise. I’m crossing my fingers. I’ve never been excited everyday and never been this inspired. Again, I love you. Ingat ka palagi and nandito lang ako. :)

Ayun! Haha, o pano! I’m still thinking of what to cook later. Malamang yung roast Chicken na naman! I guess yan ang next post ko. :D

Have A Very Merry Christmas Everyone! :D hug! hehe

4 days before Christmas. Part 3

2010-12-21T00:00:00.005+08:00

Para sa last part ng post ko na to :D

4. Box Set ng DVD ng old Hollywood Movies

From Cassablanca to The Graduate to 42^nd Street to All About Eve. The list can go on and on.

3. renew ng Gym Membership

Maeexpire na sa 23 ang membership ko. Kailangan makapagrenew ulit ng 3 months, para Century Tuna Belly Body na sa Marso

2. New Gym Shoes

Pwedeng pangporma at the same time pang gym para di na papalit palit at mabigat sa bag.

1. IKAW

Oo, ikaw. :D

halika nga dito. Payapos ng mahigpit! Love You! :)

Mamamasko po! (Random Stuffs)

2010-12-19T13:42:00.003+08:00

Exams are finally over pero di papaawat ang school. They adjusted the vacation, dapat wala ng pasok next week but they extended the classes para daw extended ang vacation till January 5. not bad! :D

I’ll rate my performance sa mga subjects ko from the easiest to the most difficult

Rehab Medicine

Obstetrics

Pedia

Endocrinology

Oncology

Pulmonology

Cardiology

NEPHROLOGY – may sumpa ata tong subject na to. Sobrang hirap!

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Maxed my Sun line kaya nagulat ako na I can’t make a phone call yesterday. Weird. I think they still owe me something with their crappy internet connection like adjusting the date or deducting something kasi when I was using globe broadband services and when something wrong happened at least, they tried to compromise.

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Haven’t even started with my Christmas shopping, though hindi naman problema dahil 5 lang inaanak ko. Yup, you read that right. Yan ang nagagawa ng suplado at wala pang work. Lol! Pero wala naman akong masabi sa mga pangalan ng mga inaanak ko

Maja Isabel

Princess Reyn

Sophia Anne

William

Ryan James

Kainggit naman mga pangalan nila! Hahaha!

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Wala akong naattendan pang Christmas Party but last Saturday after exams e nameet ko sila Kuya Mak, Tere at Doc Rio. Yehey! Sobrang namiss ko tong mga to. Then sa Monday, dinner naman with Med School friends. Napagisipan naming na mag exchange gift kahit 4 lang kami. Hehe. San ba nakakabili ng CD ng OST ng Eat, Pray and Love. Meron ba nun? Haha. Yun kasi request ng nabunot ko. Haha

Kayo kamusta naman ang party nyo?

haha, natawa ko sa sinabi ko. REGALUHAN KO KAYO, ANAKAN KO MUNA KAYO! :P

12 days before Christmas. Part 2

2010-12-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

Para sa part 2 ng aking wishlist….

Heto na!

8. Gym Shirt

Dahil salitan ko ginagamit ang 3 kong gym shirt e kailangan ko na dagdagan ang mga to. Kaya baka after exams, pasama ako kay kuya sa Bazaar o Trade Fair malapit sa amin. Nakakatuwa kasi orig na Nike at Adidas ang gawa dahil galing eto sa factory na malapit sa amin na iniexport nila abroad. May mga minute defects pero hindi mo mahahalata. Sa halagang P250-P300 meron na kong gym shirt. Yehey!

7. Add more workout

Nanunuod ako ng vids sa youtube kung pano ko pa ba mapapaliit ang aking malaking tiyan. Lol. Sana magkaeffect naman to. Lol

kakapanuod ko lang ng vid na to. akalain mo pati si britney may ab workout. lol

6. Bagong Tabo sa Dorm

May crack na yung lumang tabo, as in sayang ang tubig. Lol! Meron bang tabo na gawa sa babasagin? O yung magandang tingnan? Lol

5. bagong Blog Layout.

Kailangan ko na ata magpalit ng layout. Nawa’y sipagin ako sa darating na bakasyon! Kung di ko man mapaltan sana sa January or March. :D kailangan ko na rin iupdate ang blogroll ko. :D

one suggested na all white na layout. bagay daw sa akin kasi mukha akong mabait. heheheh

ayun. 8 days na lang pasko na. ayaw na nya magpapigil! at sa wakas malapit na akong magbakasyon! yehey!

The "F" word

2010-12-14T12:00:00.001+08:00

“It’s hard to separate to the stigma that you were called fat for a long time. Feels like you lived and breathed with it all through your life. And it seems like what you're doing now is still not enough.”

Naisip ko lang isulat yan nung isang araw and a good friend told me to stop contemplating and do something about it. Kesa sa magmukmok nga naman daw ako. Salamat sayo kaibigan. :D

Alam ko hindi instant magpapayat. At minsan nakakawala ng motivation. Lalo na ngayon magpapasko. Puro handaan. Hehehe

So ayun. I really need to concentrate sa work out. Para century tuna belly body na by March. Dahil dapat happy na birthday month pa. :P

And I need to concentrate on my studies. Exam week na, kaya hinay hinay na muna ko sa blog. May mga nakaautopost naman. I’ll revisit your blog na rin kung may time.

12 days before Christmas Part 1.

2010-12-13T00:00:00.001+08:00

Hoe Hoe Hoe! Haha. Biro lang!

Mukhang this year e wala akong aattendan na Christmas Party. Tama, ayoko na kasi umattend sa class Christmas Party since hindi ko na naman kaclose yung iba kong kaklase. (in short, di ako invited) So baka meron kayo dyang party na pwede ako sumingit. Ahehe. Biro lang! :P

So since 12 days na lang at pasko na, ano nga ba ang mahihiling ng munti nyong prinsipe. Dahil nakaipon naman ako ng konti e dapat ko naman siguro regaluhan ang sarili ko diba? Ahehe

Kasama na rin sa list na to ang mga gusto kong gawin o matapos

12. Bagong Weight Lifting Gloves

Medyo madumi na din at tattered ang aking gloves so siguro oras na palitan na sya. Hehe

eto?

o eto?

11. DVD series ng Lie to Me

Since holidays e pwede na ko manuod ng mga downloaded series. Sana mapanuod ko nga to as suggested by a good friend.

10. Tapusin ang Series ko na Knife

Sadly Part 1 lang talaga ang nasulat ko dahil sa halong katamaran at schoolwork (labo diba)

9. Paper bound/ebook na Catching Fire

Gusto ko lang matapos ang Second book na to from Suzanne Collins. Nakakamiss din magbasa ng none-Medical Books :P

to follow na lang yung 8! hehe

Something New, Something Old. Part 2.

2010-12-10T18:00:00.004+08:00

To continue the list of music in my playlist. here’s my lineup of songs that I listen most of the time.

By the way both are actually kinda old songs. hehe

Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve

I fell in love immediately when I heard this song after watching Cruel Intentions starring Sarah Michelle Gellar and Ryan Phillippe in high school, performed by British alternative band The Verve. This song serves as the lead track on their album Urban Hymns.

Seriously this song sets my mood. Imagine the combination of violins and alternative music. Eargasm! Hehehe.

“Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life.
Trying to make ends meet, try to find somebody then you die”

Lux Æterna by Clint Mansell

This was originally composed by Clint Mansell for the movie Requiem for A Dream Starring Jennifer Connelly and my look-alike Jared Leto (haha). If you try to listen to the song, what runs through your head? To me, I felt like doing something heroic and sometimes escaping to my fear and mistakes.

Weird right?

salamat nga pala sa pagfollow sa akin. yung 100th follower ko ay may award pakiclaim na lang sa email mo po sir. hehehe. :P

This _ is made for _

2010-12-08T00:00:00.003+08:00

For my 200th post, let’s play a game.

At dahil masyadong seryoso mga post ko lately. hehehe

I’ll post a pic then you have to apply a word or a phrase you want in the blank.

Don’t go to the nast okay? Hahaha.

Game...

These eyes are made for _______

These Lips are made for _______

This hand is made for ______

natawa ako ng nakita ko to nuong isang araw sa ONTD. haha

A Prayer and A Vote

2010-12-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

I usually attend a Saturday night mass since there are less people and I find it more solemn so I can say a short prayer and can concentrate on listening to the priest.

I decided to wear a shirt and a short, forgetting that there was a dress code; I have to stay outside at the church’s canopy. At least it was a little chilly tonight. I stayed near the huge old oak doors of the church and opposite to me is an old lady, around 80s, sitting on the floor and is wearing a tattered duster under an old school uniform skirt. Both her feet are swollen and she mutters a prayer after each time people pass by her when she asked for some change.

The empty cup she was holding was flown by the cold winds entering the canopy. The cup fell at least 2 feet away from her and she was about to crawl on the church’s floor. I reached for the cup and hand it over to her. That’s when I knew she has poor eyesight as one of her hands reaches for the cup and the other reaching for my hand.

I returned to my old post, back to the opposite side of the church’s door and gaze upon the altar, look up to the Cross and thought the lights carried by the Angels near it went blurry. I closed my eyes and that’s when I felt I tear up a bit.

………………………………………………………….

In the light of the coming The 2010 Philippine Blog Awards, I’m casting my vote to Ms. Xienah’s blog, CHKSLG under the category of Blogger’s Choice Award. I’ve been a visitor of her blog for almost 2 years and her posts never fail to amuse me. Her writing skills and theme are the things that usually get my attention. So I want to congratulate her in advance and I hope she’ll take this award home. Apir!

Lastly to my readers, please if you do have time. Cast a vote too! Thanks!

Panganay

2010-12-02T00:00:00.004+08:00

Kailan man, hindi ko mararanasan maging panganay. Simula’t sapul, bilang bunso hindi ko mararanasan ang pressure na inaasahan ng lahat kay kuya.

Inaasahang makapaghanap agad ng trabaho pagkatapos ng kolehiyo. Inaasahan na kahit papano makatulong sa bayarin sa bahay. Inaasahan na unang magaasawa. Inaasahan magkaroon ng anak bilang unang apo. Inaasahan na kung ano man nag mangyari, darating ang panahon sya ang tatayong tagadesisyon ng pamilya.

Hindi ko masyadong naranasan na pagbuhatan ng kamay ng magulang ko. Iniisip ko pa lang pano kaya si kuya? Kung simula pagkabata nya hanggang sa dumating ako e napapalo kami? Ilang palo na ng sinturon, walis tambo, at kung ano mang mahagilap ng mga magulang ko na pamalo ang nadaanan nya.

Naalala ko nuon, napagalitan kaming apat na magkakapatid, magkakatabi sa kama at si kuya ang nasa dulo at ako ang pinakamalapit kay tatay. Buckle ng belt ang tumatama sa kanya, samantalang sa akin, di masyadong umaabot ang bawat hagupit ni tatay.

Nuong medyo nakaluwag na ang pamilya, si kuya nagaabot abot yan ng pambaon ko sa school. Hindi alam nila nanay na nadadagdagan ako ng ninoy kada lingo. Hanggang ngayon rin naman e. hehe Minsan tumatawag yan kung ano problema ko. Dati kasi, may napost akong kaemohan na status sa facebook, tumawag yan agad at nagtatanong kung ano problema. Haha

Dude ang tawagan namin sa bahay, kaming 3 magkakapatid na barako. Nalaman niya dati kung bakit dude ang tawag ko sa kanya, Dude, short for Dudley, oo like Dudley Dursley, paborito sya ng nanay namin. Haha. Di na makakaila yun kahit ideny pa ni nanay. Lol dati kasi bigdeal sa akin yun na bakit lagi sya napapaburan, pero sa lahat ng sacrifices ni kuya unti-unti ko na rin naintindihan. So hindi na bigdeal kung sino paborito sa bahay.

Natutuwa ako pag nakikita ko sila naglalaro ni Maja (pamangkin/inaanak ko). Alam mo yung tipong proud ka sa kapatid mo sa achievements nya? Ganon. Masayang Masaya ako para sa kanya.

Sa totoo simpleng tao lang naman ang utol ko. Swerte sya sa maraming bagay. Swerte siya trabaho nya. Sa sister-in-law ko at syempre sa baby nila.

Ano pa ba ang mahihiling ko sa utol ko?

Isa pang pamangkin… lalake naman. Hehe

Magbawas sya ng timbang at ng blood glucose.

Kaya sa mga Panganay dyan. Eto ang akap ko! Saludo ako sa inyo. Hehe

At sa utol ko, Happy Happy Birthday! :D

Awareness

2010-12-01T00:46:00.003+08:00

Be Aware!

Be Responsible.

There's so many ways to help and stop the spread.

And show some compassion to those who are in burden and in fear.

Be one of those candles and today say a little prayer.

visit WorldAidsDay.org

Reflections…

2010-11-28T15:10:00.002+08:00

these are random things that ran through my head the past few days. prolly encountered some after school, while on the way from gym, while having my coffee fix or just struck my head out of nowhere. :D

Trust…

It’s not what you’re thinking naughty you.

For me it’s the hardest thing to earn from someone. It’s easy to say that “you can trust me” or “I won’t say anything” but in the long run, there will come a time you’ll regret when you gave it easily to someone. Good thing there are still few people that you can trust. I thank those few people.

Regrets…

We all have one or two, maybe more… what’s important is that you reflect and try not to make the same mistakes again.

Respect…

Sometimes what really ruins your day are disrespectful people especially those who have nothing left to do cause’ they’re bored with their lame lives. Seriously, wag nating panungahan ang ibang tao, wag nating basagin ang trip nila, wag natin silang pagchismisan. Respeto… don’t be such an insolent know-it-all about other people, di mo sila kakilala. You might’ve met them, you might’ve seen them, you might’ve rub elbows with them, you might have read some things about them and you might’ve breathed the same air. But that doesn’t mean you know them. So respect.

Acceptance…

Accept the fact that not everyone will like you, that life’s a bitch that way. Be yourself and hold your own, people will not always like you anyway. Accept that there are some instances; life will make it hard for you so you can cope up. Accept that there are good people despite of what you’ve done are still there for you and believing you.

Forgive…

At the end of the day learn to forgive. It might not be easy depending on the magnitude of the situation, but doesn’t it feel good when you actually do so? It gives you clarity and peace of mind.

Faith…

Believe and trust Him.

Believe and trust yourself. You’re capable of doing things when you believe (parang kanta lang).

Love…

Happy that there’s someone that will accept you and love you no matter what size you fit in.

63

2010-11-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

ANAK

Naniniwala ako na lahat tayong mga anak, darating ang araw, ay tayo naman ang magaalaga sa mga magulang natin. Kung dati rati, tayo ang inaaruga. Panigurado may panahon na tayo naman ang magaaruga sa kanila. Ganun ang nanay sa lola ko. Kahit na may kalakasan pa naman ang lola ko sa edad na 93. Minsan hindi na nya rin kinakaya ang magpalit ng diaper at underwear. Pag nagkakasakit ito at sinasamahan ko ang nanay. Nakikita ko pano nya punasan ng basang bimpo at palitan ng damit ang lola ko. Minsan nakita kong namumugto ang mata ng nanay lalo na nung nakita nyang nahihirapan ang lola ko. Tumungo muna ko sa likod bahay at nagtago at dun ako lumuha.

GURO

60 nung nagretiro ang nanay sa pagtuturo. ilang estudyante naba ang naturuan nya? Ilang taon rin na ba siya dati sa serbisyo? Ilang eleksyon, PTA meeting, at graduation ang kanyang nadaluhan? Hindi rin mabilang… pero bale wala yun kay nanay. Tulad ng sabi ko dati. Natutuwa ako kapag nababasa ko ang sulat ng mga estudyante nya sa kanya. Kung pano sila nagpapasalamat sa nanay ko, na gumanap na ina nila sa paaralan. Marami na rin syang regalo na natanggap, greeting cards, maliliit na figurine, at kung anu-ano pa galling sa mga estudyante at naging estudyante nya. Aaminin ko natatawa ako sa una, pero nung pinabasa ni nanay yung ibang sulat, dun ko naisip na napakaswerte ko. Na guro nila ang nanay ko. Na hindi lang ako ang nagmamahal sa kanya.

NANAY

Di ko na rin mabilang na ilang sermon ang natanggap ko sa kanya. Nasabi ko sa isang tao na ang pinakamaagang alaala na natatandaan ko, yun yung tinuturuan ako ng nanay ko na magsulat at gumuhit sa isang maliit na chalkboard habang nakaupo ako sa balustre ng terrace namin dito sa bahay. Naalala ko din nung pinagalitan niya ako sa harap ng klase namin dahil nasunog ko yung sinaing na pinaluto nya sa akin sa school canteen. Naalala ko nuon na na may mga araw na naghahati kami sa isang lucky me chicken noodle at tig-isa kami ng nilagang itlog na syang tanghalian namin sa school. Naalala ko nung nakita ko syang umiiyak palabas ng aking highschool dahil may katarantaduhan akong nagawa at napatawag kaming dalawa sa principal’s office.

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Nay, alam ko pasaway ako. Hanggang ngayon naman. Pero alam ko na nakikita mo na nagsisikap ako. Lagi kong tinatandaan ang mga pangaral mo. Lagi ko rin pinagdadasal na sana dumating ang panahon ako naman magaaruga at magaalaga sayo at maipasyal ko kayo ni tatay sa malayong lugar. Sa ngayon mahihiling ko lang na maging malusog kayong dalawa. Happy birthday po.

x's - Susubukan kong mag I love you sa kanya. Di ko pa to ginagawa. Pero alam ko, magagawa ko to. :)

para sa inayakan kong isulat dati, basahin mo to.

An Unsent Love Letter

2010-11-21T00:00:00.008+08:00

WARNING: this is the cheesiest thing I’ll post in my blog. But what the hell, you can leave now if you want to.

I have this as a draft for a very long time. Someday, I’ll give this letter to someone.

Before, great men write love letters when they’re separated with their loved ones. For example is war as well as hundreds and hundreds of miles. Like with soldiers and when they come to a combat, before snail mails, phone calls and before the advent of skype and webcam, all you need is a pen and paper and spill out what you feel for that special someone and tell them that you miss them and that your only wish is to be with them. For a change, I wrote this letter not for someone I left neither for a battle nor me being far away. Won’t you agree that when you’re deeply in love, you’re capable of doing crazy things?

So here’s my take…

I’m not great with words…

And I’m doing this to show you how much I care.

I know that action speaks louder than words. But just in case, I’ll lose my confidence again and haven’t mustered and tell you exactly what I really feel, I want you to read this.

I remember the first time I heard your voice; I sensed a hint of sadness. So I tried as much as possible to make you smile and comfort you. I guess that day I was successful doing so. You had a lot of questions then, some are about me and I tried my best to answer all of them with sincerity. Days had passed and I like how you share little by little your stories, from the funny ones to some of your secrets. I guess day by day I won your trust.

I love the way you laugh at my jokes.

I love the way you sing for me.

I love watching you falling asleep.

I love the sound you make when you sip your soup.

I love how appreciative you are even with the smallest little thing.

I love the way you trust my opinions and judgment.

I love that we have a lot of things in common, and most of the time we’re thinking of exactly the same thing.

I love that when I was shaken to the core, you called and told me everything’s gonna be okay.

I love that despite my low self esteem, you’re always there boosting it up.

I love the way you cheer me up.

I love the way how you believe in me and that I can do great things.

I love that you gave me a sense of direction, that now at least I have a concrete plan with my life.

I love the way you say I love you too.

I’ll never be ashamed to tell this to the whole world that with you, everyday I’m in love. And everyday, my love intensifies and is incomparable to the day prior.

I don’t want to make any promises to you. All I want for us is to enjoy what we have now and hopefully we can make it last. I trust us.

Also, I hope someday we can travel the world. I know that’s one of the things we want to do. We’ll go to Ireland and Scotland and lay on the greeneries enjoying the sun. We’ll ride the Gondola in tour Venice together. Watch the grand prix in Monaco, teach you how to swim and enjoy the sunset in Santorini. And eat in different Boulangerie or Pâtisserie in Paris.

There’s a lot of things going through my mind and I want to tell you everything trough this letter. But it’s best that at least you know now what I really feel. The next time you’ll visit my blog again, I hope you’ll reread this letter and remind you of what I really really feel. I love you.

Unfailing Love - Jimmy Needham

X’s – I was supposed to record this, maybe when that person comes. I’ll read or record this. :D

Before and After

2010-11-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

And the saga continues...

dahil palabiro ang prinsipe/doctor nyo, e lagi rin naman akong nababara. hehe

may kaibigan ako na pumasa last August ng Physician Licensure Exam. at eto ang banat ko sa kanya nung nagbirthday sya nung july.

Intern days ko palang sa VMMC e nabanyagan ko na syang Eugene D. hehe. At ganda na ang tawag sa kanya nung intern pa lang kami nung premed. kahit malaki itong kasinungalingan...

Di rin siya magpapatalo sa kalokohan, nandyan nung nadaan kami sa reception area ng laboratory at tawa kami ng tawa for almost 30 minutes dahil sa taong nakaupo sa reception area. (sama lang diba? hehe)

Umorder kami ng dinner nung first night duty namin. lahat kami nahihiya at burger lang kinain. sya ang inorder 2 pcs chicken... may extra rice pa.

One time naisipan namin magbaon ng dinner para tipid. 6pm kumakain na sya, after six daw. 8pm ng kami naman ang kumakain, nahingan at nakitinidor siya sa lahat ng baon namin.

Ahead siya sa akin magmed, one time nagpasundo siya dahil late na at natatakot dumaan ng talahiban dito malapit sa school. habang naglalakad, bigla syang bumanat sa effort niyang pasexy voice "tara gawin natin sa damuhan"... langya!

at pinakanakakatawang banat niya sa akin "diet ka ng diet, lagi ka namang BEFORE sa BEFORE and AFTER"... langya talaga! hahaha

X's - sweet talaga ko sa mga kagrupo ko nung intern kaya ganyan na lang ako magpacute sa kanila. hehe

Case 10: 1... 2... 3... PUSH!

2010-11-14T00:00:00.005+08:00

Hinga ng malalim, hold your breath mommy and push 1… 2… 3… 4… 5… 6… 7… 8… 9… 10… Push!

This is the case of 25 year old male who recently had his rotation in Obstetrics. Within the 12 hours of duty he witnessed 2 Normal Vaginal Delivery, 1 Forceps Delivery and an Appendectomy (delivery room is just near the operating room) at 3 in the morning.

What made the duty of the said 25 year old male more enjoyable was his conversation with the residents of the said department. He used to think that they were a snotty snob that makes the lives of interns miserable. But after having burger and twister fries with them, it’s clear that it’s part of the learning process that they’ll give you a jolt and a little shake and it was nice to know they’re humans after all. Hehe. One of them is pretty hot too. Haha. Hi Dra. NE! :D

I used to think that our OB chief resident is inconsiderate and just plain bitchy, but after conversing with her, she’s actually okay and very funny. She and one of the residents tried to make a mock interview with the four of us on duty and asked what our favorite subject is. I was about to answer OB. Seriously obstetrics is one of the easiest subjects to study and they stick to the reference book as a source of examination questions, but I ended up answering Rehab Medicine. Lol. Second question was, who’s our favorite consultant is, now I have to answer that honestly since I only like 2 consultant physicians as my professors. One’s from OB and the other is from Surgery. Conversation with them went on and on, and I really appreciate them giving us tips and advices. Our chat was cut short when one of the mommies was about to go on labor, right then we got back to being serious.

Hinga ng malalim, hold your breath mommy and push 1… 2… 3… 4… 5… 6… 7… 8… 9… 10… Push!

X’s – no, I’m not planning to be an Obstetrician, though the perks of working as one is very rewarding. Nyehehhe. :P

Something New, Something Classical

2010-11-10T11:59:00.002+08:00

I have different taste in music. I can’t remember when this started but yeah,I think I can listen to any types. :D enjoy! :D

I've been listening to these a lot lately.

Robyn ft. Röyksopp - None of Dem

“I’m so bored in this town
Take me away from here
Play me some kind of new sound
Something true and sincere”

The beats of this song makes me feel doing something bad or nasty things. Haha. Parang eargasm lang :P

i think it's much better if you need to listen to this song with a headset. :P

The Black Keys - She's Long Gone

“And she's not made like those other girls

Her lashes flap and they smack men back”

I can listen to this while driving, problem is aside from that I don’t have a car of my own yet, I don’t know how to drive. Wait may driver naman e. :P

Mozart: Symphony No. 40

I always listen to Mozart when doing something like ironing my uniform or washing my clothes in the sink. Ahahah. Ewan ko ba. Lo. Minsan I play this before I review. Not sure if this helps, pero maganda naman ang result ng exam. Haha. I know weirdo! lol

Have you read about the Mozart Effect?

Lotion

2010-11-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

Dahil nalalapit na ang pasko, share ko lang ag mga weird at nakakatawang Christmas gifts na nakuha ko.

1. shirt na either maluwag o masikip o hindi ko type – langya, kaya ayaw ko nareregaluhan ng damit. Though thankful ako sa nagbigay dahil alam ko todo effort naman yun sa paghahanap pero minsan naman di mo madeny na nadisappoint ka. Hehehe.

2. scented candle – eto parang insulto, hindi naman ako mabaho. Hehehe

3. mang tomas – though joke time lang naman to, bigay nya eto. Oo yung kaibigan ko na nilokong katulong. Langya yun. Nirequest ko e cap. Dahil dumating yung time na nahilig ako sa cap. Pero ang una munang binigay e isang nakabalot na akala ko e alak o beer. Habang nasa Christmas party kami e kinukulit na nya akong buksan ang gift. Pagbukas ko isang bote ng mang tomas…

Sabi ng kaibigan ko. “Papi, ayan lotion mo!”

Sabay tawa ang walanghiya. lol

Ako rin naman natawa. Adik talaga yung kaibigan kong yon. Hahahaha

Kung di mo nagets kung bakit “lotion”, bahala ka! Hahaha

Kaw anong weird na regalo natanggap mo?

NTM: Nimmy’s Top Model

2010-11-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

I think I made a promise to my good friend Nimmy that I’ll make a list of my crushes in ANTM. (yeah I do watch ANTM, who cares?) ehehe :P

So here they are:

10. Fatima Siad

Fatima Siad was a contestant during Cycle 10 of ANTM. A Somalia-Ethiopian and raised in Boston, Massachusetts

9. Renee Alway -

Renee Alway was a contestant and one of the top three during Cycle 8 of ANTM. She was born and raised in northern Michigan,

8. Anchal Joseph -

Anchal Joseph was a contestant on Cycle 7 of ANTM. Born in New Delhi, India

7. Raina Hein -

Raina Hein was a contestant and runner-up during Cycle 14 of ANTM. She’s from Minnetonka, Minnesota.

6. Jessica Serfaty -

Jessica Serfaty was a contestant during Cycle 14 of ANTM. She’s already a mom and guess who befriended her in facebook? Hehe

5. Jane Randall -

Jane Randall presently is a contestant of Cycle 15 of ANTM. She’s an ivy league student from Baltimore, Maryland and she was actually discovered via Tyra.com.

4. Heather Kuzmich-

Heather Kuzmich was a contestant during Cycle 9 of ANTM. She’s from Valparaiso, Indiana.. During the show, it was revealed that Kuzmich has Asperger’s Syndrome and ADHD.

3. Nicole Linkletter -

Nicole Linkletter won Cycle 5 of ANTM. Born in North Dakota, now I think she’s a model of Forever21.

2. Nicole Fox -

Who wouldn’t like her? Nicole Fox was a contestant and winner of Cycle 13 of ANTM. This red head is a student from Colorado with height of 5’7”.

1. Katarzyna Dolinska -

Katarzyna Dolinska only got the top 5 of Cycle 10 of ANTM. She’s from Roslyn, NY and worked in finance before the show.now, Katarzyna, who is also using the name “Kat Doll,” is now signed with Elite Model Management in New York, Ace Models in Athens, Greece, and Ford Models Europe in Paris, France. Eat that tyra! hehe

so there you go. hope you enjoyed! :)

pics and info from here

Case 9: Cauchemar

2010-11-01T00:00:00.004+08:00

Cauchemar

This is a case of a 25 year old male who had 2 cups of coffee 3 hours prior to an event he’ll never forget. Later that night, patient JA decided to take a 2 hours nap after reviewing for his exams. He turned off the lights and left a small warm light open. He set his 2 phones on alarm at 2 in the morning and immediately fell asleep.

After 30 minutes or so, patient JA, felt cold and at the same time felt something's pulling him into a deeper sleep. That’s when he sensed, it was like he’s being watched by someone. Patient JA ignored what’s happening, since after 3 years staying in his dorm room, there’s nothing strange or extraordinary disturbances he’s aware of occurring there.

Patient JA removed all the pillows in his bed (all 5 of them) but there’s no luck, everytime he’ll close his eyes, the feeling of being watched and being pulled to a deeper sleep was there. There was an instance he felt that there was a heavy feeling on his torso, like someone sitting on top of his chest. JA never returned to sleep and just continued with his reviewing.

Weird as it may sound, that happened couple of times already, and that’s when JA sleeps when his feet faces the door of his dorm room. So is it true? What the old superstition says?

image taken from here

GIF party!

2010-10-29T00:00:00.009+08:00

I'm thanking ONTD, which is one of my favorite celeb sites to visit cause they never fail to amuse me. While they live to their website's credibility which is "the celebrities are disposable, the content is priceless" the 2nd thing i enjoyed the most are their gifs! how do you pronouce it btw? gif as in gift without "t" or jif? these are my top 5 gifs.

Hope these gifs will work! :)

i knew it. ayaw gumana. click the links na lang para makita. :(

Jessica Alba welcomes you in! :D

yummy! haha

dare! ganto ka bumaba ng stairs o! hehe

sana ganito lang kadali! san ko kaya ilalagay yung sa akin? lol

panalo talaga to! haha

sorry sa di nakakita ng last 2. lol

images are all from ONTD. thanks guys!

Are You Afraid? You shoudln't be!

2010-10-25T09:00:00.000+08:00

Fear…

Some of us have fear of heights,

Some has fear of spiders, snakes, and the likes.

Some of us have fear of supernatural beings like ghosts.

As described, fear is a vital response to physical and emotional danger—if we couldn't feel it, we couldn't protect ourselves from legitimate threats. But often we fear situations that are in no way life-or-death, and thus hang back for no good reason.

Just like everybody else, I have my fare share of fear.

I’m afraid to become physically dependent to my family or anybody close to me. I’m afraid to be engaged in accidents then after I survive and that will hinder and make me incapable of doing things that I still and want to do. (I’m not being prejudiced to our fellows who everyday has a struggle trying to make it work and living normally, I salute them, and I owe them apology if ever one of them is reading this and got offended)

I’m afraid of heights. But I am managing to control this by practicing. I used to stay away from looking in lower levels of malls when i stroll and in my school. I even used to refuse staying around those circles and take a peek what’s going down.

I’m a little claustrophobic too… I hate it when there’s a feeling that you’re suffocated. It happened once. I panicked inside an elevator in MRT Quezon Avenue station. I can’t breathe and started sweating and I was telling myself to calm down. I regret why I ever took a ride to that elevator.

X's - how about you? san ka natatakot?

3 Short Years Ago

2010-10-20T00:00:00.012+08:00

It’s been 3 years since my first post. (yeah I know I’m freaking old) hehe. October 20, 2007 seems to be a very long time ago for me

Yup 3 years… will you believe that?

With only 185 posts (due to blog hiatus :P )

When I started blogging, I didn’t mind how many readers will I have or how many comments will I get. Ganun pa rin naman ngayon. That didn’t even cross my mind, probably because this blog is more of sharing my thoughts or just being annoying to some. Writing’s always been an escape for me, just like reading. I guess, instead of spending my valuable time doing nothing, it’s better to write.

First, I thank the bloggers who inspired me to create this blog since 2007. Alam nyo na kung sino kayo. :P

I’m very much happy to have actually met some bloggers. Some became my true friends not only to this blog, but also personally ;-)

But then, I’m still keeping my anonymity in this blog…

Until I achieve that dream body. Just kidding! Hahaha

So what are my wishes?

1. Write more. Share more. kung oks lang? :P

2. Pass med school and take boards then work abroad and still be able to blog. (I’ll make a post about this)

3. Meet SOME of you, definitely!

4. ~~Buy more shoes~~… haha, bat napasama to?

5. Maybe change my writing style? I still don’t know how to do this yet.

6. Probably make a Video post? ~~(hush down Soltero, not the one that you’re thinking. haha)~~ Basta gagawa ako ng paraan. :P

7. Try clicking the play button below. :D if you like it, i’ll try and make some post using this.

x's - may mali. haha. it's "may libre kayong" not "may libre akong" hahaha. sorry! :P

Kwentong Katulong...

2010-10-14T17:27:00.008+08:00

Do you know someone na laging inaasar ng mga kakilala nya? May mga ganung tao ata talaga. I have this friend and she looks like the lion in the Wizard of Oz with her hair. Hehehe. Alam naman niya na binibiro ko sya palagi, at tuwang tuwa pa ata siya pag inaasar. Tulad ng:

“pwede, maglysol ka muna bago ka humawak sa akin.”

“Ang mantika ng mukha mo, prituhan ko yan mamaya.”

“Type ka nung guard sa dorm namin, hinihingi nya number mo!”

She calls me Papi, kahit nasa dulo ng corridor yan ng School or Ospital sisigaw yan, lahat tuloy ng consultant, residente at clerk titingin! Ewan ko ba kung ano sumapi sa kaibigan kong yun! Haha. Pero the best yung narinig ko na pangaasar ka sa kanya nung Christmas party namin last year. Di ko makakalimutan yun dahil sobrang napatawa ako.

“JOY, (not her real name) alam mo mukha kang katulong…”

Sabay sumimangot sa nagsabi at nasabi nya na “AT, BAKET?”

“Diba ang mga katulong sa telenovela, nagkakasyota ng mga gwapong amo? O diba ang swerte mo, ibig sabihin magkakasyota ka ng gwapo. Yiihiii.”

Nagblush at napangiti ang kaibigan kong to, flattered pa ata. Hahaha

"Pero syempre sa una papahirapan ka muna" habol nung nangaasar sa kanya.

Ako naman naibuga ang iniinom kong beer. Lol!

…………………………

Been a fan of Panic! At the Disco since they started, I’ve been listening to this song. Sana magustuhan nyo. : ) try their New Perspective, gusto ko rin yun. : )

Build God, Then We'll Talk by Panic! At the Disco

medyo weird yung vid ah! :P

X's - to be fair, malakas din syang mangalaska, 2nd honor tawag nya sa akin. secret na lang kung bakit! haha. dali share ka ng mga hirit mo! :P

Knife... Part Une

2010-10-07T16:41:00.006+08:00

This is your typical love story, a guy met a girl, guy courts the girl, and girl likes the guy. But between these two souls, their story is not so conventional.

Patrick met Eloise in a café, on her way on the line for her afternoon coffee fix; in her mind she can almost smell the scent of roasted coffee bean which always lightens her spirits. Patrick bumped into Eloise’s because he’s in a hurry to take his late lunch after he scrubbed in a major operation.

“Sorry!” Eloise said in a sarcastic tone.

“Oh, I’m so sorry too! I thought you need to be awaken cause you looked like you’re in a mild trance.” Patrick said. Then he smirked.

“How rude! Thank God not all guys are like you, I bet you’re still single!” Eloise replied.

Patrick wondered how she knew he’s still single. Then he looked at his ring finger. Then he said… “Sorry”

There were few people in that café that afternoon. 3 students seem to be cramming probably for their exam the following day. There’s a couple sitting next to each other canoodling at the corner of the café, Patrick noticed how the girl giggles while the guy whispers something on her ear. He also observes a group of old men chatting about the news earlier that day. Patrick always does this, maybe as a physician he’s trained in observing people, their mannerisms, he sometimes guesses the age and thinking if these people has a medical complain. Then lastly he noticed the lady in a green dress, the lady he bumped into a little earlier, the lady that he failed to notice of how pretty she is.

“Bummer…” Patrick whispered to himself.

He watched her how she sips her coffee. How she stares outside the window, faint sunlight hitting her pretty face. He noticed how the lady smiled when the kids passed by outside the café.

For awhile Patrick lost track of time. He needs to go back to the hospital. He takes his coffee with him, and hurriedly went out of the café. For the last time he looked at the lady. Then he smiled.

...................

“Patient Number 73” the lady in the intercom said.

The patient with the number went to the front desk, and she was directed to proceed to the 2^nd door on her right. Written on the wall beside that door was.

Patrick G. Cruz MD, FPCS

The patient gently knocked on the door. And as she got inside, she almost screamed… “YOU!?!”

.....................

X's - trying my take on a fictional story. hope i can finish this. hehe :P

Case 8: You are What You Eat

2010-10-04T22:16:00.004+08:00

Hayun! Musta na? medyo busy lang lately :D

So medyo kinakarir ko na ang pag gym. Kahit namiss ko yung isang session last Friday.nakatulog kasi ako. At ayaw ko abutin ng medyo late dahil deretso pa ako ng uwi sa Cavite.

Since kinakarir ang pagggym, medyo minodify ko na rin ang diet. Nagkakanin pa rin naman ako… Occasionally. Half rice minsan. Minsan wala. Pero mostly cereal at salad. Last 6 months nung nag gym ako e ang kinakain ko lang e nestle fitness cereal. Diet kung diet. Minsan kahit galing exams, walang tulog mag gym pa din. Haha adik lang? pasensya na. sawang sawa na rin kasi akong tawaging lobo, baboy, piggy, at kung ano ano pa. pero narealize ko mali rin naman yong sobrang diet diba? So here’s what I did.

I watch every calorie I take in as much as possible. Pwera na lang kung dine out! Paki ba niyo? Hehe

So eto usually breakfast ko. Cereal plus peach slices. Ang total nyan e mga at least 280 calories. i think!

Tapos eto, salad (lettuce, cherry tomatoes, chiken fillet) di ko alam ilang calories nyan. Lol!

Medyo may kalakihan pero nasa 2000+cal/day (minus 500 daw pag diet) ata kailangan ko. Kailangan ko pa rin naman ng energy para huminga, magisip at mag gym. :P

nagpagawa ako ng program for target areas ko na iwoworkout. so hayun sana hindi naman kahirapan. hehe

X's - kanina ayaw bumukas ni Chloe (tong laptop ko) namatay sya bigla. pero good thing nagopen. salamat sa lucky charm ko! hehehe.

"You And I"

2010-09-30T00:50:00.006+08:00

"You And I"

by Stevie Wonder

Here we are on earth together,

It's you and I,

God has made us fall in love, it's true,

I've really found someone like you

Will it stay the love you feel for me, will it stay,

That you will be by my side

To see me through,

Until my life is through

Well, in my mind, we can conquer the world,

In love you and I, you and I, you and I

I am glad at least in my life I found someone

That may not be here forever to see me through,

But I found strength in you,

I only pray that I have shown you a brighter day,

Because that's all that I am living for, you see,

Don't worry what happens to me

Cause' in my mind, you will stay here always,

In love, you and I, you and I, you and I, you and I

In my mind we can conquer the world

In love, you and I, you and I, you and I

X's - I'm trying to learn singing this song (in my range :D)...

Whoever you are, in 5 years, i'll keep my promise and sing this for you.

Oooppss Moments

2010-09-27T17:58:00.001+08:00

It’s true that one of the best teachers and way to learn is by our daily experiences. Some of us learn from the hard way, it might be by failing a subject, getting your heart broken or some problems we face daily.

But some experiences are learned in funny or sometimes in uncanny ways. Sometimes you’ll go through these experiences and right after you’ll laugh at yourself or sometimes with a company, maybe a family or a friend.

Awhile ago, on my way to Gold’s gym, I took a bus in SM North. I didn’t even read the sign knowing that all buses will pass by the said gym. As I was about to pay, the kundoktor and he told me, “Iho, hindi kami nagsasakay at nagbaba dito” as he returned my 2 five Peso coins. Then I stood up, and when the driver saw me, he scolded me that they’re not allowed to drop someone there and I should’ve read the sign and it goes on and on and on and on. I shouted I’m sorry po! Then I jumped from the bus as he slowed down. For awhile I was worried he will not allow me to get out of that bus. :D

Second experience is that I never figured out yet how to operate the shower in the said gym to switch into cold shower! Lol! I couldn’t ask someone on how to turn it, that would be weird right? Haha. Seriously I was twisting and turning the knob then last week, there! Alas! Hahaha. I was laughing at myself the whole time.

So how about you, any funny experiences? Share ka naman! :D

X's pahabaol, my cousins one time surprisingly visited our house in Cavite. and i was taking a shower then. as we all are rockstars in the shower. i sang Rock with you. and heard them clapping outside. hahaha! that will never happen again. :P

Case 7: Confessions of a GymandShopaholic

2010-09-21T19:56:00.004+08:00

Ayun! After a week of vacation, yeah you read that right. I only had a week for vacation, samahan mo pa ng enrollment and everything (shopping) hehe so minus na naman yun sa bakasyon. Womp womp womp. So where did I spent my vacation? Syempre sa bahay! Hehe. Good thing nandun ang aking cute and pretty inaanak/paangkin na mana sa ninong. Mana sa kakulitan! Since sa bahay nga, lumobo na naman ako. Yeah I gain weight even when I breathe ata sa bahay. hehe

So anung solusyon? I enrolled myself sa gym kanina. So balik gym na ko. I applied for the 36 sessions good for 3 months dahil hindi ko naman afford ang one year na membership. Sa baon ko kasi binabawas ang pang gym kaya ayun. Tiis! Saan ako nag-gym? Secret! Hehehe! Will I still jog in UP? Siguro paminsan minsan kapag natrip-an.

Been cleaning and arranging my dorm room. Di kasi sya spacious, so I need to do some adjustments. Probably next post I’ll post some pics ng dorm. :D

Lastly, I mentioned earlier about shopping! Hehe. I bought a new pair of shoes. Wala lang for sure di ko naman magagamit agad sa school kasi maulan. Hahaha

X’s – can’t wait for OUR vacation! So I need to save money! Save save save! I need help!

Case 6: Naalala kita, SEMBREAK!

2010-09-15T21:16:00.014+08:00

After 5 days of contemplating on what happened to me (rather not talk about it here guys and gals. :D), I’m back! Yes. Hehe So what keeps me busy the past few days?

1. Been reading book 7 of the Harry Potter series. This coming November is the screening of the first half of the film so it’s crucial for us potter fans/geeks to catch up and remember every single important detail. Lol! Just kidding! It’s always a habit of me to read HP series during breaks, I don’t know maybe it’s some sort of escape from reality.

2. Another book that I’ve been reading is Hunger Games by Suzzane Collins (2008). I’ve been hearing good reviews about this book and been advised several times to read. And I heard it will be adapted to a movie with no specific date yet, I think. I will not write anything about this book, all I can say is just read it! And I need to catch up, because book 2 which is Catching Fire (2009) and book 3 Mockingjay (last August) are already out. But I need to save muna so I can buy the other 2. :D

3. Hell yeah! The balikbayan box just came this afternoon! Remember the LIST? Haha. When my parents and sib returned last August 27^th, they already brought some stuffs with them but most of the items I had written on the LIST were not yet completed. Until now! hehe

Kenneth Cole stuffs in NY are really cheap! That’s why I asked for those. I think they have outlet stores that sell these with discounts.

Dove! Though not on my list, I’ve been using dove for 5 months for face and body. Hehe. try the 7 days Dove Challenge and see the difference. Lol! Seriously, dove made in US has a different feel compared to local ones.

The bag! I need a new backpack!

Shirts! I’ve been controlling myself to buy shirts for the past month and it was worth to save money for new clothes

The tumbler (pointed). My brother told me that these are sold out already in most stores in NY. So lucky us to get 5 of these! Hehe And all are in good hands. :D this is not my shelf by the way, it’s my friend’s and she’s been collecting different cities! Yey for her. hehe

4. Lastly, I cooked dinner tonight.

Tuna and mushroom in white sauce

Iced tea with lemon

need to point the lemon! lol

Certified Coffee Addict

2010-09-08T18:15:00.012+08:00

Before, I was against reviewing in coffee shops. Ewan ko ba? feeling ko di naman nakakaaral talaga yung mga tao dun. Nakakadistract yung mga tao, yung music, at magastos. All changed after few weeks at inamin ko sa sarili ko na din a ako makapag aral dito sa dorm.

Totoo naman pala yung naisip ko. Haha! Na minsan nakakadistract yung mga tao at yung music at totoo magastos, pero I proved myself wrong nung nakapagaral naman ako. I can finish reading chapters and handouts with ease nung nagbabasa ako sa coffee shop na to specifically the one in Timog and Tomas Morato. It depends where you review siguro like in Morato where most Medical and Law Students review, they have this special tables where you can read. Nakakahawa yung ambiance na magaral since you’re seeing everyone studying. The one in Timog is nice too, spacious, konti ang tao minsan, and nandun yung favorite couch ko na kung anu-anong posisyon na ata nagawa ko. Hehe

Magastos pero I think worth naman kung nakakapagaral ka and mas oks kung makapasa ka, diba? :D

So here’s a random list of the 5 drinks in Starbucks that I usually order. These are the ones I usually order kapag tumatambay lang or nagrereview. Oh, and I usually asked for a mug of ice and water, para di naman puro kape lang iniinom ko. hehehe

1. Iced White Chocolate Mocha

sweet and very light, if you try this, sasabihin mo na, "kaya ko gumawa nito" but no! hehehe

2. Iced Vanilla Coffee Jelly Latte

just tried this yesterday, with one shot of espresso, gising na ko nun. problema nawiwiwi ako ng madalas. hehehe

3. Raspberry Black Currant

usually a hit or miss kasi yung iba parang may mint flavor na ewan.

4. Iced White Café Americano

another pampagising, i was told this have 4 shots of espresso. matapang pero oks naman.

5. Honey Orange Frappuccino Cream Based

i had this last year pa ata, seasonal thingy siguro. yung cream based yung nasa left na kulay white. namiss ko tuloy. :(

Diba picture pa lang nakakataba na? haha. kaya i order and asked na no whip, para di naman nakakakonsensya sa diet kuno. hehe

Pero pag tipid na tipid na, nasa cabinet or ref lang naman dito sa dorm ang 2 sachet ng Nescafe 3in1 Sweet n’ Creamy + Milo + hot water + Cowhead Fresh Milk = solve na solve na! hehehe.

X’s - Ngayon, bumalik ang aking hyperacidity kakape! hahaha

Rest Day and Random Things

2010-09-04T14:37:00.002+08:00

1. Tired of the cheaters easily passing the exam. They’re able to buy sets of exams from someone. Proof? Well I don’t have concrete evidence but let me tell you this, the grades they get doesn’t match with the attitude as a student. One of them asked me if SIXTEEN is spelled with “h” in it. Most of them has a higher grade than the legit Scholars. They’re also notorious of copying during exams. I already told this to someone and he asked me what to do with it. I said, I don’t know. Some of them have influence with the GODS. What’s sad is that those of us who makes sacrifices and really study hard must be able to reach their grades so that we’ll pass as well.

I’m sad for their soon to be patients.

As what I posted on my facebook status. “lahat naman tayo dun pupunta, importante ANO GINAWA MO para makarating dun.”

I have a letter for them…

2. Research paper. I cried yesterday morning (Friday) as I chat with my best buddy. He’s in Cali now. I told him I have to contact the one who will conduct the seminar for our action plan which happened yesterday at 11am. Worst thing to happen is that I have an exam at the same time. Thursday morning I was telling my group mates I won’t be able to contact and assist the guest speaker. Sadly they won’t listen and there the worst really happened. I was waiting for the guest speaker’s email and all that meaning I had less time reading and preparing for my exams. I was late and wasn’t able to concentrate much for that exam. Wish me luck.

3. I need to learn how to say NO. Cause now I’m going to present the whole research. Womp womp womp.

4. Best Girl Friend from highschool got married! She used to comment in this blog. Her name was Muning! Hehe. Few of us knew she’ll get married and when I greeted her on her facebook wall one of our friends commented on my post na “hirap saten eh di man lang pinaalam. tsk tsk.” And I replied “let's just celebrate muning and hubby! besides twas their special day. not ours. :)” I asked my best buddy if was harsh and if I did changed a lot. He said I became outspoken and courageous. (I’ll prolly post about this soon)

5. Lastly, I’m here back at home. Relaxing a bit, because I know the next few days will be more toxic. How’s your weekend so far?

Case 5: State of Confusion

2010-08-30T07:50:00.002+08:00

I was about to wash my laundry earlier today when rain poured hard. I’ve been very busy for the past week and it seems I’ll be extending my dorm stay till next week. I still have to coordinate a seminar for our action plan this coming Friday, another exam tomorrow and next Wednesday. I remember from a movie when one guy said “you know when you’re doing great in your work? when your life turns into a smoke”. Same applies in Post Grad School. Adding to that is you have a limited allowance.

But…

What made me so happy last weekend is that it’s our town fiesta and of course the arrival of my parents and my brother! Yehey! Hehehe. So did I get all the things I wanted from the list? Of course! Hehehe but as I promised, I hugged them when they arrive, which is weird for them cause I never showed any form of affection since, I don’t know. I was about to take pics of the goodies but I realize I don’t want to become a show off. So imagine nyo na lang. :P

It was very tiring to entertain and meet some relatives. Kailangan smile pa rin kahit bored na sa kinkuwento. Haha! I remember last 5-7 years ago when me and my siblings will have a contest of who will have the most guests coming. Lol! But this year only two of my highschool friends came. Muning and G arrived at 9pm, I was trying to fight my sleep but when muning dropped the good news, I was instantly wide awake. To muning, you’ll always be dearest to me and I’m really happy for you and your groom Poch. :D

Another thing, I met two bloggers, they are the ones who are close and dearest to me because they’re like family. And I’m thankful I found time relaxing with them. And whatever they’re going through, I know they’ll be okay. :D

What irritates me is that I have to cut my vacation short and return here in QC. I’m questioning myself if I’m still enjoying this. So, I might blog irregularly. I don’t want to run this blog with sad thoughts.

And what divides my thoughts? I’m actually fixing my papers to take my internship somewhere else. That I have to move.

Sabaw Thoughts

2010-08-22T07:26:00.001+08:00

Trying to make a post…

This is so random that you can skip reading it.

Been very busy, and it might last till Saturday

I spent 24 hours in Starbucks within 2 days just to review. I still have 2 more days to review

My funds are getting low, I need a sideline. Porn maybe?

Excited for my mom, dad and kuya’s arrival this Thursday

Thinking of some things

1. What to order in Starbucks today? Current favorite is Iced White Choco Mocha

2. Did my brother bought all the things in my wish list

3. So conscious about my hair color

4. Will I be able to jog this week? :(

5. WANTS to meet some blogger after exam, no drinking alcoholic beverages please haha

6. in the verge of wanting to learn how to smoke. Haha. Ok, no way! Lol

7. in the verge of buying new clothes/shoes but realize my ate will send a box full of it! :D

8. Where to spend my Sembreak! Boracay? Caramoan? Bohol?

9. I need your prayers, sana tulungan ako ni Bro na makapasa. :)

10. Where to read my blog cause’ I’ll be only able to check this after 12 hours/later tonight

Vacation Part 3: A Gloomy Morning in Vigan

2010-08-18T23:17:00.018+08:00

I should’ve included this post to my last. Sabi nga nung iba nagiging travel blog na daw ako. Lol. Pero, it’s quite recent lang naman na nagstart ako magtravel. Last year I think was CWC, then this year Pagudpud and Vigan.

So where were we ended last time? Ahhhh! So we turned the lights off and slept from 10pm and my 2 mobile phones that I set on 6am, alarmed. One played Lenny Kravitz - Are you gonna go my way and the other played Phoenix – 1901. After our morning rituals, mine was ~~masturbate~~, shower, brush my teeth, wash my face, apply deo, dry hair, apply moisturizer, and at around 7 in the morning, we went downstairs and ate our free breakfast. Since I acted as the leader the whole trip (weeh? Wag magreact!), I decided that we must have reservations first for our tickets going back to Manila later that afternoon, roam around Mena Crisologo Street or the Vigan Heritage Village, then shop and dine lastly hit the road back to Manila.

Sadly, Partas Bus doesn’t have reservations pala for tickets. Haha! But at least we knew what time we have to leave Vigan. We went back and visited Vigan Cathedral (I was told I have to knock daw the Church’s door kung first time?), the clouds earlier were giving us a warning pala, it was gloomy but it was perfect for taking pictures and strolling the Mena Crisologo Street. The heritage Village has a different appeal at night compared that morning. Seriously, I was mesmerized of what I saw that day. I was thinking how many people set foot on that street. And there’s kinda eerie and astonishing feeling walking through it. Or maybe I felt different kasi we were drunk nga the night prior. hehehe

At around 10:30am, after all the shopping and camwhoring, we decided to take an early lunch and at exactly 12 noon, we bid farewell to Vigan.

So here are some of our pics.

Vigan Cathedral

Na-cut yung Mcdo na luma yung pagkakastyle ng building :(

my favorite pic. taken by me. hehehe :P

another photo by me :P

ok, di ko na kuha to. yung friend ko. and look at that kid! haha

photo taken by my friend who took the previous pic

another one by G, my friend

Bistro Amarillo! aside from the Resto, they also have a hotel, mukhang maganda dun!

Chicharong Bulaklak, i didn't like the first time i tried this pero i liked Bistro Amarillo's take on this! sarap!

SISIG! heheh

Sweet and sour Tanigue! yummm! hehehe

Turon with Vanilla Ice Cream, Choco Syrup and Cherry! hihi

bonus pic! nakagat ni jobi! hehehehe :D

may humirit, pagbigayan pa ng 6 hours! haha

Vacation Part 2: Vigan at Night

2010-08-14T23:52:00.011+08:00

After 2 bus rides from Pagudpud to Laoag then Laoag to Vigan, we arrived at the latter at around 7 in the evening. Still, without a hotel to stay for that night and we’re kinda starving, luckily Cordillera Inn offered us a hotel stay in a room with 2 queen size beds, nice shower with heater, offers wifi and free breakfast for P1800. Shey, a tourism grad explained that, instead of havaing a vacancy, hotels do discounts in last minute. “sayang daw ang kita”. Hehehe. We’re about to look for other Hotels but we can’t refuse their offer. Another good thing about Cordillera Inn is that it’s along the main street or Mena Crisologo Street or the Vigan Heritage Village.

After we freshen up a bit, we decided to have our dinner in Café Leona, we had Longganisa, Seafood Salad and of course, Bagnet! We also ordered 2 bottles of red wine prior. After 30-40 minutes and paying our bill, we decided to take a walk. Funny thing was, I think we got tipsy with the wine. (lol, ewan ko ba we drunk a bottle before eating kasi). We were talking nonsense, taking pictures here and there, laughing at smallest things, shouting at group of Koreans who kept on following us and running ‘cause of the roaches! Hehehe. We were looking for a place where we can have dessert but we were so tired na. at around 10:30pm we decided to call it a day, took a shower then deep slumber.

Just check our pics of Vigan at night. :D

Cordillera Inn in the morning

Cafe Leona in the Morning

With Shey!

G and Shey

Lonagganisa, Seafood Salad and Bagnet!

pati ba naman pinto? hehe

Sige Pose! hehehe :P

X's - Since we don't have pics in the hotel. picture 1 is from here, while picture 2 is from here

Vacation Part 1: Pagudpud

2010-08-10T07:03:00.018+08:00

First, we were planning to have our weekend vacation in Bohol but the night before; we changed plans and decided to go to Pagudpud and Vigan. The 3 of us met at MOA at around 6pm and had light dinner at Kimono Ken. At around 8:40pm we hailed a cab going to the bus station. It’s very economical for a P550 air-conditioned bus ride directly from Manila to Pagudpud, though some of my co passengers were a bit annoying making noises. And after 14 hours of sleeping-pretending to sleep pattern we arrived at Pagudpud. I was glad that it was a bit cloudy that day, a very good day to spend some time in the beach.

After we arrived at a municipal hall in Pagudpud we needed to take a 20km tricycle ride. It was quite expensive but that’s the only sort of transportation that’s accessible for us first timers there. I told my friend that I thought after 10 minutes I’ll get bored with the tricycle ride but no, there were lots of zigzag and torques. After 20-25 minutes we arrived at Hannah’s Beach Resort. We decided not to check in the hotel ‘cause we settle on spending the night at Vigan. We only payed P30 for the shower and CR, so we changed clothes in there as well. After that, we had lunch and tried some local foods such as Insarabasab.

We hit the beach after 40 minutes, laid our bags over towels on the sand. I know it’s not good to be under the sun at around 12 noon to 1:30pm! Haha! Minsan lang naman diba? :P

I once told someone I’m not a nature person. Walang signal ang parehong phone, walang net, ayaw ko sa may insekto. Pero all changed after seeing the Blue Lagoon. Pero siguro mas makakatagal ako kung may wifi! hahaha

Now, I’ll let the pictures speak for themselves.

with shey, Insarabasab in the middle plate, below that: Spicy Prawns!

BUSOG!

dumodorsal lithotomy position lang! parang manganganak! haha

x's - first 3 pics were taken from here. wala kasi kaming pics na maayos. pero yan din naman yun. :D

The L Word

2010-08-03T17:31:00.009+08:00

I was about to write a topic about this. But then, my screen went like that for a half an hour. They say when you write, you have to write what you know. And I’ll admit I’m still amateurish, hence the screen stares back at me, and probably asked me, “now what?”

But then I realize I know love, I felt what real love is. It’s a different kind of love, but this is the kind that I’m familiar with.

There is the kind of love that you get from your family. They’re the ones who know you inside out. Though sometimes you never tell them you love them, tell them most of your secrets, or hide something to them, you know that they’re right behind you. Accepts you, loves you. They’re the ones who are behind our success and our shoulder when you’re defeated. When my parents and my sibs went to US for a vacation (I know its short term), I realize how much I miss them especially when I’ll come home every weekend. I’ll just think that they deserve to enjoy and set aside their worries for awhile.

Another kind of love that I’m aware of is the one with my friends. Recently, one of my friends was accused and slammed with rumors here in school. The worst thing about that was aside that it’s a false accusation, the usage of derogatory words was unnecessary. As a friend I was hurt. Then I asked them, two of my closest friend to stay with me in my home last 2 weekends ago. And I realize that they’re like my sibling already. Whether we have different beliefs, grown from different cultures, different families we always have each other’s support. I may not be vocal about it but I love my friends, the ones that I keep are the ones that have a special place in my heart. Naks!

I tried to be domesticated as much as possible for them and cooked them meals. Hehe

beefsteak and stirred veggies

(i know from this pic mukang pusit ung steak!lol)

Tahong!

My take on Wicked Oreos! :D

unplanned swimming! hehe. Go team Samsung! hehe

Lastly, I may sound vain but we must love ourselves. However, not to the extent like Narcissus did. Hehe. But seriously, as what they say, learn to love yourself then you will learn to love others. There are different ways to do that. Again I’m not an expert. Eherm… hehe. Be optimistic at the same time, lessen your expectations. When people praise you for the good things and good deeds, appreciate them. When you fail, got shouted at, take that as a lesson and a positive thing. Also, take care of yourself, if you know you’re not allowed to drink or smoke, don’t! If you need exercise or rest, take some time. I don’t want to sound preachy but the only person that can help you is yourself.

Love may come in different forms, shapes and gender. But we must appreciate the littlest things. Because there will come a time, we will regret that we ignored or took advantage of them.

Case 4

2010-07-29T20:45:00.002+08:00

We are presented with a case of a 25 year old Filipino male, after 18 hours and still wide awake, he’s still elated. As usual, I was cramming making my hand written history which I will present to Consultant X. I still hope you remember Consultant X. Let me remind you about Consultant X… aside from her mean attitude towards students and interns, there’s nothing more that I can add. Hehe. But seriously, Consultant X is like your typical Cat lady. She doesn’t like cats but I bet she loves some pussies. :P

She’s known for howling at students, shouting at interns for small little things. To be fair, she’s really intelligent. Magna Cum Laude and Graduating top of her class in Premed and Med School. At a very young age she’s one of the best Cardiologists not only here in my School but also in Philippine Heart Center.

And today, we finally met.

Don’t you hate it when you were given a bad endorsement regarding one person and when you finally met that person; she’s the opposite of what you expected. Yes, Consultant X has this aura of someone you should be afraid of, but she’s actually nice.

She only wants few things from her students. One is, to read. Seriously, how can you answer her questions if you weren’t even prepared? Two is to practice how you speak and your grammar. I know, I myself make some mistakes but at least I try a little and talk with conviction. Third, if you’ll make a guess at least, make an intelligent one. Fourth, don’t give her a reason to bully and mock you, again if you’re prepared or try to look as if you were prepared, you’re okay. Haha. Lastly, try to act like you’re interested on what she says, even if she calls you the most derogatory things, we need to learn the hard way, right?

I was told I tamed the dragon lady earlier today. Seriously, I don’t carry the laurels for myself, I owe that to my group mates and it was a team work last night. It’s just that I probably read more than them and recall some ideas from my premed course.

Consultant X was all smiles when she left our group after that small group case discussion. Let’s wait next next week if she’ll be the same or she’ll unleash her evil alter ego.

X’s – I accidentally deleted the widows media player and the contents of the entertainment folder in my laptop. Should I just insert my windows CD and will it reinstall lost/deleted data? Huhu!

My-So-Called-Quest

Surgery! Oh Surgery!

2:14

I Wrote a Story about You

Magpe-Pedia ka ba?

Death And All His Friends

It's Indeed Been a Crazy Month

The Eternal Optimist

The Untold Story

Medicine is Might

Rewind, Play, then Stop

Rewind, Slow Motion then Pause

Something New, Something Old. Press Play Then Next

Rewind then Fast Forward

It’s Time Everyone Flies.

Case 13: Me and Maja Part 2

Something New, Something Old. ADELE

Case 13: Mr. Palengke

Case 12: Me and Maja

Something New, Something Old. Part 3

Regular Programming

Case 11: Lola Ingay and Lola Ching

Rundown

When the Prince Met His Match

Juan

Prayers and Wishes

4 days before Christmas. Part 3

Mamamasko po! (Random Stuffs)

12 days before Christmas. Part 2

The "F" word

12 days before Christmas Part 1.

Something New, Something Old. Part 2.

This ___ is made for ___

A Prayer and A Vote

Panganay

Awareness

Reflections…

63

An Unsent Love Letter

Unfailing Love - Jimmy Needham

X’s – I was supposed to record this, maybe when that person comes. I’ll read or record this. :D

Before and After

Case 10: 1... 2... 3... PUSH!

Something New, Something Classical

The Black Keys - She's Long Gone

“And she's not made like those other girls

Her lashes flap and they smack men back”

Mozart: Symphony No. 40

I always listen to Mozart when doing something like ironing my uniform or washing my clothes in the sink. Ahahah. Ewan ko ba. Lo. Minsan I play this before I review. Not sure if this helps, pero maganda naman ang result ng exam. Haha. I know weirdo! lol

Lotion

NTM: Nimmy’s Top Model

Case 9: Cauchemar

GIF party!

Are You Afraid? You shoudln't be!

3 Short Years Ago

Kwentong Katulong...

Knife... Part Une

Case 8: You are What You Eat

"You And I"

Oooppss Moments

Case 7: Confessions of a GymandShopaholic

Case 6: Naalala kita, SEMBREAK!

Certified Coffee Addict

Rest Day and Random Things

Case 5: State of Confusion

Sabaw Thoughts

Vacation Part 3: A Gloomy Morning in Vigan

Vacation Part 2: Vigan at Night

Vacation Part 1: Pagudpud

The L Word

Case 4

This _ is made for _